TGIF

i may seem stupid, but i'm not dumb since i'm nt the only one who felt that way.

i think by now, someone already got the hint from the chain reactions and is trying to avoid problems..

heard frm the rest of them that there's a warehouse sale going on near killiney road for loreal, maybelline and garnier products.. so cheap that they bought so many things.. and DKNY having sale. 80%!! that's what they said. i dunno abt it. too tired to go anyway.

i'm not in a mean mood today. that's why i nv do stupid things like calling them when they were playing the game of run and seek.

i've decided to blow my one first month allowance when i get it. minus my transport fee of course. arbo i'll be running deficit.

anyway, was calculating savings on my way home. i guess the scorching sun sort of burnt my brain.

scenario: i'll go out to work once i graduate. meaning, i'll complete my diploma before i even reach 20. that implies that at the tender age of 19.5, i'm out in the work force. taking a 15 years working period, if my average monthly salary is about $1200 (minus transport), i SHOULD BE able to save $500/mth.

here's the calculations:
$500/mth=$6000/yr
$6000/yr=$90,000 in 15 years time

ignoring interest and other investments (at age 35) if i'm lucky enuff, i'll be able to save $100,000...

that means, i cant even afford a 3-room resale flat!

i'm taking the assumption such that i want a one time payment. not monthly CPF deductions to pay by instalments. if by miracle this is possible, tell me where to get the money for renovations, furniture, electronic appliances, necessities and housewarming??!!!!!

if by miracle (again) all these are made possible one way or another, then i guess i SHOULD BE able to live comfortable when i reach 55, which is also the age where CPF comes into gd use. lets say i retire at age 63. the amount of money would be able to last me for another 10 years or so.

so juz a thought. if i spent all my money at age 70, can i request for an early death? i'll promise to make advanced guaranteed booking and apply for the relevant permits and visas...

classroom session for SIP scheduled at the clash timing that i dislike so much..

to make matters worse, i got the tutor that i always have communication breakdown with. how great. and the best thing? the ALO is someone that i dun even recall seeing. wish me luck pple.

saw the Lancome perfume that Viy was looking for that time. walked past and the colour caught my eyes. so hope viy could go back and take a look plus reconsider getting it. if i'm nt wrong, the smallest bottle is $58/=. haha

SJAB gathering coming up. next week. but i dun think i'm able to go. poor me. not being able to meet up with my clique is one thing. seeing the seniors and the rest of the loggerheads gang is another. poor me. not able to gossip, to share, and to slack.

to see the seniors, and proudly proclaim my "love" for the course.(*pui) elaborate on how VERY interesting the subjects are. how wonderful the SIP is and how the whole 2 years have been a fantastic experience for me. that is, just to make them jealous. they thought i'll go into biomed or some other bio-thingy related courses.. by then, i guess their "yaya" attitude shldnt be dominant. and may they regret how WELL we've been treated. i dun really dislike them. i'm juz not very fond of them. but maybe they're the same.

maybe the whole thing is coincidental. coz if i really meet up with them, i guess i'll either fall asleep when they're updating me about their lives, or discuss my life without letting them cut in. (not that i'm trying to be rude. if i sleep, it's either i'm too tired, or their conversation is way too boring. if i talk about myself, i'm just trying to open up and "blend in"..)
watever it is.

i tell u, a whole day without makeup is FANTATIC. MARVELOUS. GREAT!!!

okay. i need to save up 50 bucks. fast.

the DJs are talking about the population in China. by 2030, they will have about the size of a Singapore full of guys that are not able to have a partner. meaning, the ratio of guys compared to girls is way too different. inagine. a whole singapore full of guys!!!! that's pathetic. maybe they can consider taking vietnam wives...

but in recent years, more parents prefer baby girls compared to boys.. so maybe 60 years down the road, females are allowed to have two husbands or more. to make up for the ratio imbalance..

and by then, lesser or no female need to be missus anymore..

Day 6?

i can be so mean at times.. trice today.. keep track unintentionally..

confirmed my dislike (AGAIN) for that STY SLY since i happened to see him alight frm a cab.. suay cabbie uncle.. apologies to any of u who are great loyal fans of his. watever~

to tell the truth, his new CD rocks... i mean can be compared to rocks. (u know how impurities always sinks?) heard a few of the songs over the radio.. usually i dun hav extreme dislike for newcomers but his standard and quality of music is highly questionable... so i was wondering why in the world (s'pore to be specific) would someone even want to pre-order that CD with "ugly and low quality" packaging, as heard from a bunch of xiao meimeis outside midpoint orchard.. (those are exact words mind u)

and the Mac uni got me laughing hard. and the contagious laughter plus the "look" on their faces had me going again after i tried to surpress it..

now i know. i'm mean. and i mean really. coz i couldnt stop. gossiping is a great communication tool. maybe.

The price to pay for being naive & gullible...

is high..

hasnt been doing much constructive stuff since i put one foot forward.

on second thoughts, at least i'm doing sth practical.

what i meant was that i am always doing the wrong things at the wrong time.

anyway, i'm trying very hard to be like the little blue bird that carries the whole sky on his back.

1 down. 3 more to go before i make up my mind and conclude. give me strength.

i want to get so many things as i walked ard town. but i cant.

AND THERE'S NO VIEW!! IF U CALL FACING THE WALL A VIEW. DAMN IT!!

okay. i hope someone can cure my lousy behaviour and pathetic attitude before next week..??

i guess not. bah.

What is the most-overlooked important detail that helps make a good relationship?

Intellectual compatibility.
Laughter.
Shopping and fashion sense.
Cuddling.
Honesty.

For those who has been constantly viewing my posts (therefore i assume u know me well enuff to answer this qn) u shld know what i'll choose, without a doubt.

WHAT ABOUT YOU??

yesterday night, my wisdom tooth gave me hell.

i guess the right tooth is out to take revenge after i extracted out the left tooth.

didnt want to let the tooth control my body so i didnt take the painkillers as advised by my mom.

went to bed after reading some comics so as to stop the pain from the uncomfortable swelling from disturbing my mind.

had a great rest frm last night. met kimpeng and eve in HM juz now.

life's slack. routine. easy.

~Tell and share~

That's why I started out blogging more than a year ago.

Here I am again, to make known how and what I think.

Read this fabulous article months ago. Enjoy:

THE MYTH OF FAME AND FORTUNE

Society's fascination with Hollywood and celebrities has just gone a little crazy. Millions idolize those who have achieved fame and fortune, but stardom does not provide the satisfaction that it advertises. Marilyn Monroe could have told us that.

Consider the celebrity of Muhammad Ali in his prime. He was known around the world as "the man who couldn't be beaten." His picture appeared on the cover of "Sports Illustrated" more times than any athlete in history. Whenever he went, the cameras followed. Today, though, it's a different story.

Sports writer Gary Smith recently spent some time with him at his home and asked to see his trophy room. Ali escorted him to a dark, damp barn beside his house. There, leaning against one wall, was a board filled with mementoes, photos from the "Thrilla in Manila," pictures of Ali dancing and punching and hoisting championship belts over his head. But the pictures were smeared with white streaks. Pigeons had made their home in the rafters.

Ali picked up the board and turned around, face to the wall. Then, as he started to leave, Smith heard him mumble, "I had the world and it wasn't nothing. Look now." Fame is fleeting. Fortune buys you nice things, but it doesn't make you happy.

The lesson here is timeless. Meaning will never be found in the praise and adoration of others. If that's where you're looking for it, you're destined for disappointment.

bloghopped during the study week and came across this.

[I strive for academic excellence,
Not because i like to win,
But because this society is superficial,
You arent getting nowhere if you dont have an outstanding cert.
I am a slave this way.

"Live fast, die young."
These are my words to live by.]

The person who wrote this is a Librian. 1st look and i agreed with the first 2 things that caught my eyes totally.. the above is one. this is the second one:

["The astrological symbol of Libra is the Scales. Like the scales of justice, Librans are objective and just. They abhor unfairness and conflict, striving above all for peace; but at times they are easily deterred from their beliefs. Librans are able to see all sides of an argument, but as their mental scales sway back and forth, they may never find balance."]

i stared at the screen and read it over and over again. how fascinating it is for me. to see parts of me in another person.

maybe we're all replicas of one another. maybe all we see is ourselves in others, and others in ourselves. parts, fragments and pieces of us... perception bah..

Many times, happiness just takes a different form.

The reason why we couldn't see or feel it is not just because it is intangible.

Rather, we keep measuring it against the first form of happiness that we know.

This is to the extent that we forgotten that there are other forms and kinds present.

We overlooked them yet we claim that they were never there in the first place.

We close them out because we lock ourselves in.

sat times

i received the sms result at 1.30 AM!! it's so freaking irritating so EARLY in the morning..

i dunno wat's wrong with me. perception error or what. and i thought i did horribly for that subject.
and damn food hygiene. i thought i'll score. i didnt... lolx.. maybe i dun hav common sense.. watever~

and lucky me didnt get a D+ for jap.. and i got such a strong feeling that i was right about that.

to tell the truth, i felt as if i was waiting for the judge's verdit ytd when shini asked abt my results in the afternoon.. (she got hers very early)

anyway, thinking abt the D+ reminds me of love at dolphine bay at 1930 on channel U. and that stupid show reminds me of the stupid useless vcd cover that sparked off a series of unfortunate events..

really couldnt understand why local productions involve such vast amount of manpower yet they cant even compete with foreign shows that uses the same few characters.. s'pore shows really CMI. but they NEED our support. overseas drama series from HK, Taiwan, korean etc.. they HAVE our support. that's the difference.

and s'poreans are getting more paranoia by the day as drama series revolves ard issues that the govt is focusing on.. politically positive but i hate it.

this 9 pm show (live on) is abt doing health checkups, abt diabetes, dialysis, cancer etc.. HEALTH ISSUES..

a few months ago, the 9 pm show goes on and on about making a will before you die, if not the negatvive consequences and immense impact on the pple ard u..

yet agian, the show (hai you ming tian 1&2) talked about those poor children with various health problems, defects, illness and need love, care and concern from the society.

then, i remember clearly about ANOTHER 9 pm show (1/2 yuan fen starring nadia, ruien and jacelyn). that is about promoting marriage. how to overlook faults, accommodating to each other, living together, getting help from various sources aka modern matchmaking services, and of course, BABIES. besides these issues, the show also incorporates this important element of promoting VOLUNTEERISM!! see how clever the production crew is!

and last year, there's this seemingly cheena show called (30 feng yu lu)... i didnt watch all the episodes, but i remember it to be seeking help when needed, sth about depression. yah.. and THAT is about the time they started off with the depression campaign. seeking help arbo u'll affect those ard you.. and if i'm nt wrong, that show also talks about drugs, autistic children and what not..

and this reminds me.. it looks like jack neo isnt who he is today if not for the govt huh... he owes his success to the need of the govt to "EDUCATE" the public.

and i'm so freaking irritated coz the whole aim of tv entertainment & relaxation is actually a tool of propaganda thru media. and i thought we have freedom and rights.

maybe that's why channel U is a threat before the merger. shows about heaven, earth, hell and the dimension in between aint really a gd source of entertainment for s'poreans in the eyes of the govt.. to them, it's useless. maybe that explains why my sis loves that show that time huh...

anyway, shant say much. i'm tired.

does this pic reminds u of wishing stairs?  

流逝与消失的时间

消失是在不觉察之间, 毫无知觉之中产生的.

虽然实际上, 时间无法消失, 但人会老去; 时间原地踏步, 变动的只是我们.

城市里的人, 一直与时间在赛跑, 却又一直活在时间之处.

流逝于消失之间, 流逝成了一种奢侈的心态.

-i weekly-

2 more discs to the end of the korean cinderella drama..

i wonder if i even watched 28 discs at the rate i'm forwarding the show..

it's way too draggy.. 1st time i've seen such a simple plot yet they drag and drag.. they not sian i also sian le.. 40 long episodes... stupid.

i skip so much i dun care about what is happening.. i only want to know how the storyline goes.. but well, i already know the ending.. watched it during the exam period.. but well, see how those sadistic scriptwriters end the story. why always leukemia? why not other diseses? why must someone always die? cursed life of the koreans.. maybe that's why korean shows are mostly touching and tear-inducing.. coz they are "made" to suffer, to go thru immense pain and sorrow. to undergo seperation from their loved ones... but 1 very good tactic they use in every show.. the bad ones always end up being good inside.. towards the end of the show, u cant help but pity them. so the show ends with mostly the person whom u were cursing and hating at first seeming like the victim of the show drama. and someone always die in the end isnt that so?

someone always get a taste of heaven in the end. the good is dead, the bad died.

what's more to a show?

why no one named their child Jesus?

i see CHRISTine, CHRISTina, CHRISTopher and so on.. but why not Jesus?