Back from HK!!!

5 days i spent overseas, 3 in Macau. 4 days i spent, having brinjal for meals.. but my table did well, we were the loudest out of the 7 tables, and we managed to finish all the dishes at all meals, except one. we cleaned out all food, even the eggplant. i am so proud to be living in S'pore when we dont depend on SEASONAL fruits and vegetables for meals. NO LONG-TERM EGGPLANT, CORN AND TOMATOES.

healthy living, but in a polluted environment. the amount of pollution is horrible. seeing haze is common. almost everyone smoke in HK and Macau. they get most of their pollution from smoke. they even get a free packet of cigarettes when they buy newspapers. nightmare for me.

the Macau tourguide is great. she's 56 and as bubbly and full of life as us. i've lots of things to say, like the heritage places we visited, and the buildings, plus the HK tour guide that the rest of bus 2 went googoo-gaga over, and of course the photos we took, the MTR we tried, the walking uphill, the weather conditions, the traffic.. but well, i guess there's no point in doing so here. so girls, i shall continue in the yahoo forum. see ya there. :)

Was on my way to work today and these random thoughts pop into my mind:

"There wont be any social unrest here, at least not in the next century, because we have come to realise that whatever we cant get by asking, we wont get by rioting."

"We have great leaders, citizens with extreme potential, talents who are creative and innovative.. pple with that special something in them, who all choose to believe in FUTURE technology. "

i swear i dunno what's wrong with my body system. isnt it a season of love, joy, and what not? all those fuzzy warm feeling that we all should have. i didnt know they meant something like a gift of flu or a season of sneezes.

i have a million things to do but my brain seems to have a mind of its own. the only thing it serves to funciton is : S-L-E-E-P. wth lor.. i only have 24 hours a day, i spent 1/3 sleeping and the rest of the 2/3 feeling tired. so i'm asking my brain. "w-t-h"

and i knwo why i'm tired. coz i'm still working. working in order to pay for my expenses in Macau and Hong Kong, working to save for my monthly allowance. have decided not to get money from my parents unless needed, coz i'm already like what, 19 and still asking for foreign aid. i feel so not independent. but independence comes at a high price. and i've traded social, physical and emotional wellbeing for it. what a nice way to start off the semester.

i feel that sometimes, the only way i can express myself through this channel is by posting an empty entry.

其实我根本不能确定我以为的爱情存不存在.
说不定那只是我的想像.
... 所以你担心自己多年来一直在追求一样不存在的东西.
为了避免落空, 就先和他在一起是吗?
如果你以为的爱情这时侯出现了, 该怎么样?

finally, back to school.

i missed school life, not school. i missed the days whereby we'll jio each other to jups for a drink.. or biz park for snacks.. and ice-cream after lessons.. journey 72 home, talking and laughing non-stop...

simply love my timetable this semester. finally, one day off from school. those pple would love to change with me. thursday off. how nice for THEM to go clubbing. so slack that i really dunno how i managed to survive for the past 5 semesters.

anyway, our school sports complex is REALLY lousy, horrible as in they dun have lockers. they do, but limited. only a few, some were spoilt. all VERY small.. so if i want to do sports, of course i will bring a bigger bag. make sense? then they DO NOT provide BIGGER lockers. what's their problem man.. and noone can help to look after our bags for a short while, not even in the office. like wth. we pay so much for miscellaneous fees, then cannot get lockers. and we're willing to pay okay! so irritating. waste my time. complain to who? SAAD?

saw kevin at one-stop and he told me that they handed over. so i guess that means i am not supposed to go back anymore, or it goes to show that i no longer belong. (As if i ever was)

watever it is, i'm glad i joined, for even a short time. even when others are putting in 100X extra effort than me, even when i felt guilty of sharing their achievement. till the point that i felt luck running out.

this attachment brought me into a different phase. another part in life that makes me realise and NOT take for granted all the things that happened. maybe it's juz the passing of time, not the completion of SIP.

planning for the future. sometimes i wonder why we should. future comes one day at a time, and tomorrow comes, regardless whether i think about it or not. it doesnt make sense. or maybe i juz sprouting nonsense.

recently, i kept hearing Twinz (si xing bu gai) and William Soh (jiu ai hai shi zui mei).. used to love to sing them but i stopped. too much of somthing is irritating. juz like happiness, AND pressure.

Ms Ng called me to ask me to work this week. so they cant find anyone who is willing to work this week. so they turn to me. i'm nt willing to help if i dun feel up to it. why should i? money is something that i can never finish earning and my well-being cant be bought with cash. so why should i make myself tired, irritable and miserable?

i'm planning to eliminate unhappy things about my life from this nonsense blog. but i cant think of any happy stuff to write. be prepared to see many more empty posts in the near future, till the day i graduate.