shld i be afraid, or shld i be feared?

Wilbur isnt back yet. the pigsy is off on a holiday trip with Charlotte and i'm here to take over, for the time being.

been arranging memories recently.

that's why i absolutely loathe study week.

i cant watch tv in peace, cant listen to the radio in peace, cant slack in peace, cant even do thingy that i find important in peace. and the culprit is guilt. that stupid useless emotion that shld be eliminated and never seen from the face of this earth again. i sleep at 3 everyday, after watching tv from 7 pm all the way till 3 in the morning.. den wake up at 2 in the afternoon... and i love this feeling of day and night switch.. the worse thing? NO ONE in my family nags at me coz i'm slacking.. that makes the whole guilt thingy worse doesnt it?

spent a long time juz now feeding tortise and fish. that's a long break away from study. and my stupid mind was yelling.. telling me all about survival of the fittest. how funny. bleahz

in the animal kingdom, the only living thing that is not exactly bounded by this rule is human beings. when i mean survival of the fittest, i'm not implying on humans who are sick and bogged down with illness, handicapped or whatsoever. i mean, we AT LEAST have a right to live. but animals? if they're "handicapped", will some organisation come and take charge of its daily needs like food and shelter? will some "society" step in to prevent it from being discriminated and bullied by other members of the "public?" will some "kind souls" initiate a "donation or charity drive" to provide for this weaker and needy "less fortunate?" the answer is NO. a BIG NONO.

maybe u can say we humans have compassion, we have a heart. but dont they?

if they're unable to source for food themselves, they'll die of hunger.
if they're unable to protect itself from harm, they'll die from attacks.
if they're unable to adapt to environmental changes, they're dead.

so, can we question why we're so fortunate? coz humans are the superior beings? coz we've intelligence that cannot be matched by any other? coz we have a mission in life far more noble? coz we're the masters and them the slaves?

U see, we own them coz we WANT them. but before owning them, hav you thought about whether they NEED you or not? will they be happier with species of their own? by possessing them, you are happier. but are they happy? you take away their natural instinct to fend for themselves. and if u're careless, they'll perish, without a doubt. they have NO choice. and without being given a choice, they have no rights. and the degree of comfort they enjoy in life is not by their own efforts, but their owners' love, care, concern, sympathy and whatever u wanna call it and so on...

and without rights, their mere existence is only such that humans can interfere. beginning and ending. the power is in our hands, not theirs. we humans are able to "control" anything from BIG to small. living things- from elephants to amoeba.

and it's scary to know that a million things are under the control of 1 thing. and
me, being part of the 1, am confused.

shld i be afraid, or shld i be feared?

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ENOUGH SAID. CHARLOTTE'S BACK WITHOUT WILBUR. I'LL HAVE TO GET OFF. THE LEASE AINT UP YET. SHALL BUZZ OFF NOW!

TILL LATER.