much more independent.

went to POM makeup lec alone, without even thinking of arranging to meet up with others.

i realised i no longer become aimless when i am alone in school..

only 4 Hospi yr 2 students turn up for the 9 am lec..

realised i am much more decisive nowadays.. still think and analyse things through but i take less time, much lesser time, and make up my mind sooner. i guess i learnt that stress built-up aint healthy.. once i decide, there is no turning back. that's when i learn how to console myself and infuse my mind with positive self-talk.. that helps... to block outside influences...

meiyin told me sth and thinking abt it makes me realise that it's been a loooong time since i last teared. and to me that's bad coz repressed emotions tend to get stronger. when u express it, the intensed feeling is gone, replaced by a lighthearted mood. at least i guess so...

and i'm going crazy with all the remix chinese new year songs.. i dun mind the classic version.. so ask the others shut up.. it's irritating with a SLOW song playing with fast background music... i'm listening to da di hui chun with techno music.. and it's not nice at all.. it's like a clash of era... -_-"'