felt like forever since the last time i blog. anyway, time is just a word we use to gauge and indicate the passing of age...

i was asked if i come from China(hainan or shanghai), Thailand, or Malaysia. and pple kept asking me what university i'm from when i told them i'm still schooling. and i dun understand why they cant get over their initial shock of me being a local, and that i am under 20 years old. O-K-A-Y. i got an oriental face. that's why i'm in mandarin!

i dun think it's necessary to explain my family background to them and that my grandpa is a China chinese.. maybe that's why i'm being raised in a VERY traditional family-oriented family. very traditional to the extent that the "ranking" system is still in place. respect for the elders is a must and EVEN for opening a fridge, we have to ask for permission.. that was when we were young. my sis still used to do it last year. so maybe that's why i dun really fancy cold stuff.. coz behind that indulgence, comes a price...

----------------------- enuff of crap.. more to come..

got thru my 4th day at Top of the M... on my 2nd day there, i saw this wedding proposal.. so sweet.. the guy arranged for a bouquet of 99 roses to be sent and kept by us before he arrives, then the service staff will present the flowers to the lady before the meal.. the band on duty played "tonight i celebrate my love" and he knelt down and ask the question.. the lady said 'yes'. that scene put me in a great mood the whole evening.. and another guest was saying that he celebrates his 39th birthday 39 floor in the air.. coz the restaurant is on the 39th floor..

the restaurant is lit mainly by candles, and some dimmed lights near the entrance.. it's practically impossible to see the table numbers, especially when the number tag is about the size of half a passport photo and hidden behind the salt and pepper shaker.. so as a runner, most of the time, i have to walk round the restaurant in order to get to the correct table. and did i forget to mention it's a revolving restaurant? lolx.. the feeling of coming out of the kitchen and seeing different guests is so cool.. everything's so nice... the view from the highest point in the middle of singapore.. working in such an environment puts me in a very good mood, daily.. great scenery, happy guests, fantastic soothing music played by the band and most importantly, no crowd and passer-by.. even the split shift cant deter me from enjoying my training thoroughly.. the 4-5 hours break in between my shift i change and go to orchard library for some peace and quiet.. indulge in some music and a good book in a cosy corner..

broke 2 sauce dishes and stupidly used my hand to pick up the broken pieces.. the chefs were looking at me as if i'm an idiot and they reminded me to use a broom for goodness sake, in case i cut my fingers.. for a moment i dunno what i was doing.. so suddenly this song came to my head.. (jay chou) "... xiang ku, lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei..."

i'm tired.. so tired after waiting for 10 days for this off day that i slept for 14 hours.. woke up at 3 today.. the feeling of not having to be at Meritus for 14 hours each working day is cool.. damn those 10am-11 pm shifts.. but i'm haing fun.. if i could only minus the 5 hours in between..

tomorrow is saturday.. that means i'll be overworked coz SINGAPOREANS will be out, trying the new hi-tea menu at a discount..

dining at the restaurant is ex.. so ex that i can never imagine myself there.. 4 pax paying $1400 for a dinner.. how cheap can that be? that is like, my 10 weeks' pay!!

life in soft hues.. the warm fuzzy feeling.. fly me to polaris..