I can't believe it. It's 18th Oct today!! I'm actually 19 years old!!

Only a handful of pple remember my birthday. So many thanks to those who do. For the rest, i can understand that to you, it's just another day of the year..

I wanted to get myself something but couldn't determine what YET.

My dad asked me what i did for the past year. After serious consideration, I guess the only thing i did was to age. Ageing gracefully is my aim but i doubt i achieved that. Pa told me that i'm still not sensible but he failed to realise that as i get older, the younger i behave. I'm desperately trying to relive my childhood..

Recently, i've been spending alot. Regular trips to coffee outlets is creating a big hole in my pocket but i'm having the best of time at this moment. Partly it's the start of the 'cool & rainy' season, partly it's my birthday period and also because attachment is coming to an end.

Wasn't expecting a miracle but at least i hope to get lots and lots and lots of well wishes. BUT... i realised (KNOW) i have limited friends.. Not really a very sociable people person.. So ..since young, my gd frens can be counted with both hands.. So it's only a dream. How i envy those pple who are remembered, especially on their birthday.. It means that they are important enough in another person's life such that even something as personal as birthdate is being taken note of.

Don't ask me what my birthday wish is. coz i dun have one. I'm too thankful for this life in this family that i have nothing more to ask for. It'll be a sin to want something more than what i already have. Talking about it, i have yet to thank my Mom for giving birth to me 19 years ago.. have yet to thank my dad for being more understanding and loving each year. Have yet to thank my siblings for accepting me for who i am.. and to whoever's-staying-upstairs for creating the bond that makes my family and i related by blood in this lifetime.. I KNOW i am lucky. I AM thankful for being so blessed, and seemingly getting more blessed by the year.. Or maybe i'm learning how to appreciate better..

Don't really have much to share this birthday. Last year i got so much to say but this time round, i guess the best thing to offer is silence.