Wednesday, February 22
Thursday, February 2
Monday, January 23
say cheese
saw a 4A classmate in the bus on my way home. the conversation within the 4 stops was much more than what we said to each other in the 2 years of high school life.. all becaue i didnt juz 'pretend' not to notice the person.. hmm.. something worth thinking about..
all because i read that magazine before i went out.. some topic on feeling lucky and being happy and what not.. and i seldom listen to DJs crap over the radio.. except quan yifeng in UFM100.3 a year ago.. decided to do so again today and oh my.. the DJs are lame. VERY lame.. was laughing to myself while doing SUDOKU.. make myself so happy today.. and i ACTUALLY started talking to some classmates that i'm not too acquainted with... lolx.. and my astrology predictions tell me to smile and smile more today.. make myself happy with small pleasures in life. for tomorrow it's something similar.. well, hope i dun go all frowny again tomorrow.. if not i'll turn into snow white's dwarf grumpy the 2nd. lolx.. =D
all because i read that magazine before i went out.. some topic on feeling lucky and being happy and what not.. and i seldom listen to DJs crap over the radio.. except quan yifeng in UFM100.3 a year ago.. decided to do so again today and oh my.. the DJs are lame. VERY lame.. was laughing to myself while doing SUDOKU.. make myself so happy today.. and i ACTUALLY started talking to some classmates that i'm not too acquainted with... lolx.. and my astrology predictions tell me to smile and smile more today.. make myself happy with small pleasures in life. for tomorrow it's something similar.. well, hope i dun go all frowny again tomorrow.. if not i'll turn into snow white's dwarf grumpy the 2nd. lolx.. =D
Friday, January 20
Thursday, January 19
Pessimism is put to good use recetly.. the attitude gets projects done at a faster rate.
and i still dun understand why it's so difficult for some people to accept putting in more time and effort so that something can be done better..
if u ask me, those who say that they have a simple mindset, or those that dont think complicated, are really the ones who act opposite. people who claim that they dont get worked up coz they keep quiet are those that have a serious peoblem with agression and repression.. well, i used to be one.. repression will ultimately lead to a more serious case of agression..
for goodness sake, juz express urself if u're unhappy. tell pple u're not in the mood to communicate for the day and ask them to leave u alone. i wont be affected. serious. coz i understand that conversing with a bad mood is bound to make both parties miserable. muz as well shut up.
well, it's my kinda weather as usual. consistent good mood. =D and it's good to receive compliments.. coz i feel great. projs tomorrow. Xcross my fingers.X
and i still dun understand why it's so difficult for some people to accept putting in more time and effort so that something can be done better..
if u ask me, those who say that they have a simple mindset, or those that dont think complicated, are really the ones who act opposite. people who claim that they dont get worked up coz they keep quiet are those that have a serious peoblem with agression and repression.. well, i used to be one.. repression will ultimately lead to a more serious case of agression..
for goodness sake, juz express urself if u're unhappy. tell pple u're not in the mood to communicate for the day and ask them to leave u alone. i wont be affected. serious. coz i understand that conversing with a bad mood is bound to make both parties miserable. muz as well shut up.
well, it's my kinda weather as usual. consistent good mood. =D and it's good to receive compliments.. coz i feel great. projs tomorrow. Xcross my fingers.X
Wednesday, January 11
Has been raining for days.. Love it.. The last time I checked, my mood is pretty good. My friends were complaining that the rain is the cause of their moodiness... This weather is perfect for some relaxation.. Ultimate enjoyment at home.. Somehow, it is able to bring out the lighthearted and calm factors that i cant seem to find in everyday life... the kind of day whereby an insignificant thing like a cup of tea is sheer happiness... and the fact that the public holidays all fall within these couple of weeks is a cause for celebration.. i'm able to sleep in till afternoon... the best thing about the rainy seasons that it seems as if day is shorter than night.. and i love it.. and did u hav a look at the sky? it's blurred and the clouds look as though they're fused together into one big thin patch that stretches across the whole sky... and the rain! oh.. i've a thousand and one things to say about rainy days.. but shall juz indulge instead of boring pple to tears.. and the reason i'm happy AND contented is coz i've finally finished my HTSEM paper.. so there goes another assignment.. next up is APEL reflection AND then the newspaper thingy.. looks like i've finally gotten back my illusion of control.. my very disorganised life seemed to get messed up at a slower rate.. now, even my paragraphing problem makes me happy.. lolx.. there's either sth seriously wrong with me or my mind kanna flu..
Monday, January 9
Read Tina's blog and did the test she did.. lolx..
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
My mood:
You Are Depressed
No doubt about it, you're feeling very down. Maybe you've had a bad day, or maybe you need help. Either way, make sure to take good care of yourself right now.
You've done pretty well in keeping your reputation protected..
Problem is, no one really knows who you are! You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.
true huh... especially the mood part plus the last para.. was online and someone told me to
"just tell every...u know who i am?...im pei jun...so dun mess around"
when i have difficulty getting along with pple...
so now then i know i WAS the boss... but then they ignored me.. lolx..
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
My mood:
You Are Depressed
No doubt about it, you're feeling very down. Maybe you've had a bad day, or maybe you need help. Either way, make sure to take good care of yourself right now.
You've done pretty well in keeping your reputation protected..
Problem is, no one really knows who you are! You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to always dream of things within reach - and you usually get them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.
true huh... especially the mood part plus the last para.. was online and someone told me to
"just tell every...u know who i am?...im pei jun...so dun mess around"
when i have difficulty getting along with pple...
so now then i know i WAS the boss... but then they ignored me.. lolx..
Saturday, January 7
SCV has never been so entertaining.. Watched SCV for the whole day and i never felt so good slacking.. Ekin Cheung and Gigi Leong ended their 7-year relationship... Well, I must admit he’s good. First is his 12 years relationship with whatever-her-name-is, then 7 years with Gigi... Imagine.. 19 years is not a short period of time… He sort of wasted his youth since the day I was born…
10 hours of TV.. now my neck hurts, and i am now regreting my 'brilliant' choice of time utilisation because i have a semester paper to submit middle of next week.. and the fact that i cannot remember what i watched didnt help to lessenthe guilt.. the only good is that the different programs didnt give me the 'wah.. lousy show, waste my time watching' feeling as compared to some local productions.. so at least i'm guilty of wasting time on a somewhat meaningful activity.
I am in a good mood today simply because it is a rainy day.. calms my disturbed heart and soul.. the best day I have for the past 2 weeks.. i hope the rain wont stop for the whole of January.. so as to keep me in a peaceful and undisrupted environment.. lolx... I promise i'll try not to snap, flare up or irritate pple... but i guess my mood is pretty much out of control since i'm in a PMSy mood and everything seems to juz crumbles and i don't even have the ILLUSION of control, no to mention being organised in my life.. well, i guess things have to go totally haywire in order for me to truly appreciate the good in my life. .okay.. what crap i'm saying again..
got to work tomorrow for the sake of collecting MORE survey foms.. shall try my best to not give the very 'fake' face when facing guests. Seriously speaking, i'm truly disappointed with myself for not having the passion to serve despite being in this industry.. the feeling of having to smile when i'm going thru a rough patch irks me.. and i find myself giving excuses for my behaviour.. but so long as no harm comes out of it, i'm pretty contented faking my 'sociable' self when i have to.. for the sake of working and getting my projects done..
10 hours of TV.. now my neck hurts, and i am now regreting my 'brilliant' choice of time utilisation because i have a semester paper to submit middle of next week.. and the fact that i cannot remember what i watched didnt help to lessenthe guilt.. the only good is that the different programs didnt give me the 'wah.. lousy show, waste my time watching' feeling as compared to some local productions.. so at least i'm guilty of wasting time on a somewhat meaningful activity.
I am in a good mood today simply because it is a rainy day.. calms my disturbed heart and soul.. the best day I have for the past 2 weeks.. i hope the rain wont stop for the whole of January.. so as to keep me in a peaceful and undisrupted environment.. lolx... I promise i'll try not to snap, flare up or irritate pple... but i guess my mood is pretty much out of control since i'm in a PMSy mood and everything seems to juz crumbles and i don't even have the ILLUSION of control, no to mention being organised in my life.. well, i guess things have to go totally haywire in order for me to truly appreciate the good in my life. .okay.. what crap i'm saying again..
got to work tomorrow for the sake of collecting MORE survey foms.. shall try my best to not give the very 'fake' face when facing guests. Seriously speaking, i'm truly disappointed with myself for not having the passion to serve despite being in this industry.. the feeling of having to smile when i'm going thru a rough patch irks me.. and i find myself giving excuses for my behaviour.. but so long as no harm comes out of it, i'm pretty contented faking my 'sociable' self when i have to.. for the sake of working and getting my projects done..
Friday, January 6
Enliven my life... with aggression..
I read about this somewhere:
"Silence was his escape, but silence is rarely a refuge."
I agree with this totally.. But I do know that it is one of my best survival tools so it is something i cannot do without. 150+ they used to remind me that I don't seem to have any emotions in the past. Not that I changed now, but they've learnt to accept me for who I am. They once suggested that I should try to be more like QY.. when I see them at the MRT station 3 cabins away, i should try to catch their attention by 1)waving frantically so that they'll notice me or 2)keep shouting their names... Sad to say, it's not something that PJ will do.. They know that if they see me doing that one day, it's either 1) the person is not me or 2) PJ has gone crazy..
So they asked for my reactions. 1) no reaction, continue my journey without letting them know my existence 2) use my phone and call them, duh.
Sometimes there's just no point in asking "u're going out ar?" when u see someone outside.. it's the same as asking someone "having lunch ar?" when u see them at the foodcourt or "u're using the toilet ar" when u see them in the washroom... for me, when there's no need to talk, just shut up. no harm's done. keeping quiet beats saying the wrong things.. and i always end up saying something that i dun really mean, wrong tone, or something that pple wont feel happy after hearing.. so i try to act upon this golden rule "There is no need to speak unless i can improve on silence."
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projeciton of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.. Still trying hard.. People don't come to see me be me. They come to see me be them.. and they never once put themselve in my shoes and see from MY point of view.. maybe i can expect people to be more like me...
There are 3 types of people in this world. there are those who have gd PR skills, those who always do PR halfway, and those without.. 150+ belongs to the first grp, JC is in the 2nd grp, and i'm in the last. Being in the wrong course has always been our fav topic for my TP buddies.. we all quite dislike socialising.. Personally, any exchange of information = gossip and can only be done when the correct mood sets in.. like after lunch or during gatherings..
and i hate the feeling of being expected to say something when i don't even feel like speaking..
hasnt been back to the temple to help out since before SIP last year. 2 things i learnt during the period:
1) You can't please everyone so you got to please yourself..
2) Not to walk in other people's shadows..
so just when i've been 'enlightened', i'm not going to compromise just because others are unhappy/dissatisfied with how i behave just because i am who i am..
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sorry Tina, for the endless grumbles this week and a BIG thank you for listening.. and can we set a date somewhere early Feb for Yum Cha with Jo and Eve?
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my conclusion for this week's reflections:
Need to enliven life with more anger.
Aggression is better than repression.
"Silence was his escape, but silence is rarely a refuge."
I agree with this totally.. But I do know that it is one of my best survival tools so it is something i cannot do without. 150+ they used to remind me that I don't seem to have any emotions in the past. Not that I changed now, but they've learnt to accept me for who I am. They once suggested that I should try to be more like QY.. when I see them at the MRT station 3 cabins away, i should try to catch their attention by 1)waving frantically so that they'll notice me or 2)keep shouting their names... Sad to say, it's not something that PJ will do.. They know that if they see me doing that one day, it's either 1) the person is not me or 2) PJ has gone crazy..
So they asked for my reactions. 1) no reaction, continue my journey without letting them know my existence 2) use my phone and call them, duh.
Sometimes there's just no point in asking "u're going out ar?" when u see someone outside.. it's the same as asking someone "having lunch ar?" when u see them at the foodcourt or "u're using the toilet ar" when u see them in the washroom... for me, when there's no need to talk, just shut up. no harm's done. keeping quiet beats saying the wrong things.. and i always end up saying something that i dun really mean, wrong tone, or something that pple wont feel happy after hearing.. so i try to act upon this golden rule "There is no need to speak unless i can improve on silence."
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projeciton of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.. Still trying hard.. People don't come to see me be me. They come to see me be them.. and they never once put themselve in my shoes and see from MY point of view.. maybe i can expect people to be more like me...
There are 3 types of people in this world. there are those who have gd PR skills, those who always do PR halfway, and those without.. 150+ belongs to the first grp, JC is in the 2nd grp, and i'm in the last. Being in the wrong course has always been our fav topic for my TP buddies.. we all quite dislike socialising.. Personally, any exchange of information = gossip and can only be done when the correct mood sets in.. like after lunch or during gatherings..
and i hate the feeling of being expected to say something when i don't even feel like speaking..
hasnt been back to the temple to help out since before SIP last year. 2 things i learnt during the period:
1) You can't please everyone so you got to please yourself..
2) Not to walk in other people's shadows..
so just when i've been 'enlightened', i'm not going to compromise just because others are unhappy/dissatisfied with how i behave just because i am who i am..
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sorry Tina, for the endless grumbles this week and a BIG thank you for listening.. and can we set a date somewhere early Feb for Yum Cha with Jo and Eve?
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my conclusion for this week's reflections:
Need to enliven life with more anger.
Aggression is better than repression.
Thursday, January 5
Out of luck today. Printer problem, then i was asked to stand near the lifts so as to 'activate' lifts for guests.. the EAM saw me all over the hotel that he stopped to chat.. on my way home, i took the wrong bus, got to walk for 15 minutes to the nearest MRT station, then kanna splashed by water by a bus.. u know i always thought in TV shows, it seems stupid that a person will get splashed by a puddle of water by the roadside.. and it's S'pore.. i have perfect trust in our drainage system.. that is, until today.. and why am i standing at the spot whereby the water will 'just nice' tio me instead of the lady standing beside me? not to forget i didnt bring my umbrella. and i brought a BIG bag to work today.. i almost fell, not to mention i reached home late. and i only managed to get like 2 surveys done. the targeted number is like 70! by next week.. how am i going to do so if all i have for working for a full shift is 2 pathetic forms? i haven started on my HT SEM paper, haven look at the APEL reflection thingy, didnt even know what to do for portfolio submission.. i think i have to submit 2 portfolios for 2 subjects.. but i dunno which.. k. end of story. bleahz.
Wednesday, January 4
a schoolmate from primary 1 to sec 4, lost contact about 3 years ago, started a msn greeting with "jun, u goi to uni or not".. hey pple.. at least have the courtesy to have a proper greeting.. a 'yoz' 'hey' or 'hi' is fine... not start a conversation with a funny qn, especially if u never keep in contact for years.. i was so tempted to juz ignore her message... she said:
"if i online nv tok to u is coz i nv see u online"... i stoned for a moment.. ching.. u shld know who i'm talking abt.. i can try to not irritate her with all my rude replies and such.. i can try to tolerate all her crap excuses... but she gave me the ultimate:
"u are not answering my question... " i can try to accommodate pple's crap.. until they give me this. i am NOT obliged to answer watever qn she has for me..
i am trying hard not to let small things like this affect me.. but somehow i cant... she spoil my day.. first the grp meeting, then this... i dunno what i did wrong the last year to start off a new year like that...
i'm going to bed. NOW.
"if i online nv tok to u is coz i nv see u online"... i stoned for a moment.. ching.. u shld know who i'm talking abt.. i can try to not irritate her with all my rude replies and such.. i can try to tolerate all her crap excuses... but she gave me the ultimate:
"u are not answering my question... " i can try to accommodate pple's crap.. until they give me this. i am NOT obliged to answer watever qn she has for me..
i am trying hard not to let small things like this affect me.. but somehow i cant... she spoil my day.. first the grp meeting, then this... i dunno what i did wrong the last year to start off a new year like that...
i'm going to bed. NOW.
Monday, January 2
This is the first entry of 2006.. I have a feeling it's going to be a great year.. better than the last at the very least.. Just because the first book i read got me laughing, twice.. I've long forgotten the last time i did that..
I need to reflect, fast.. so i turn to my favourite..
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Actually i don't think there is a need to blog. Just because of this:
'Can you prove any of the stuff you believe in?'
I know I can't. As in, all i do is to state what i believe, then it's up to others to decide whether what i say is bullshit, or true. Personally i feel stating my point of view is redundant since MY opinions dont matter to others and theirs dont matter to me.. I am not being selfish here by nt wanting to share AND not willing to accept alternative views.. It's just that showing everyone who reads my blog what i think isn't sharing simple becoz it's one-way communication and secondly, opinions change.
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'cave filled with stuff that people will kill for, which only goes to show you how confused people are about important things'
Setting priorities in the new year. Let's TRY not to get MORE materialistic this year (at least i'm trying to). in terms of improvements, look inwards instead of outwards.. for females, try to remember
1) that beauty is the icing, not the cake
2) fashion does not equal beauty, and never to be confused about these two.
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i've tried to be Miss Understanding for so long.. that i realised maybe i've been MisUnderstood all these time... We always fail to kep in mind that what we see isnt what we are and what we were isnt what we are.. I dislike making resolutions.. but i do want to kick the habit of sprouting things that dont seem to make sense after my fingers typed the words out.. watever~
I need to reflect, fast.. so i turn to my favourite..
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Actually i don't think there is a need to blog. Just because of this:
'Can you prove any of the stuff you believe in?'
I know I can't. As in, all i do is to state what i believe, then it's up to others to decide whether what i say is bullshit, or true. Personally i feel stating my point of view is redundant since MY opinions dont matter to others and theirs dont matter to me.. I am not being selfish here by nt wanting to share AND not willing to accept alternative views.. It's just that showing everyone who reads my blog what i think isn't sharing simple becoz it's one-way communication and secondly, opinions change.
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'cave filled with stuff that people will kill for, which only goes to show you how confused people are about important things'
Setting priorities in the new year. Let's TRY not to get MORE materialistic this year (at least i'm trying to). in terms of improvements, look inwards instead of outwards.. for females, try to remember
1) that beauty is the icing, not the cake
2) fashion does not equal beauty, and never to be confused about these two.
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i've tried to be Miss Understanding for so long.. that i realised maybe i've been MisUnderstood all these time... We always fail to kep in mind that what we see isnt what we are and what we were isnt what we are.. I dislike making resolutions.. but i do want to kick the habit of sprouting things that dont seem to make sense after my fingers typed the words out.. watever~
Friday, December 30
Thursday, December 29
went plaza parkroyal for buffet lunch for the birthday cum anniversary celebration today.. the most exciting part of the whole meal is seeing a lamborghini parked at the carpark.. imagine, a black, nicely waxed and stylo lambor parked outside some 4* hotel's entrance.. and the entrance is undergoing renovation.. imagine the contrast.. lolx..
went for acupuncture today..in total 9 needles, i have 6 needles on my face and 4 of them were on my nose.. felt totally like a voodoo doll waiting for doomsday.. the 'doctor' lit something on top of 3 of the needles and i can see SMOKE coming out.. not painful, but a rather weird experience.. i juz hope this will cure my sensitive nose..
met up with Judy and Aishah today.. turned out Didi wanted to intro some forever living thingy to us.. but we had a nice dinner over at some VERY ulu part of clarke Quay and fun times talking abt archery crap.. i sorta 'weigh' myself with this Tanita machine.. it's so high tech the readings tell me info like my BMI, fat %, calories needed, Fat mass, total bodywater, predicted weight and fat mass, plus how much fat u need to lose or gain.. lolx... fascinating.. and i'm still trying to register that i have a total of about 26 kg of water inside my body, plus a horrendous of about 9 kg of fat mass.. i can already visualise 9 1 litre bottles of ice-mountains floating around me.. juz that they're filled with lipids instead of water.. lolx...
but after seeing all thse funny figures, i'm relieved that i'm within the healthy range.. *phew.. sweat...
i swear this scale is evil.. harmful to a person's psychological wellbeing.. even a non-health conscious person like me start thinking about all the above crap.. imagine someone who is DYING to lose weight, or become slimmer.. they'll go crazy analysing all these.. lolx..
i got to work tomorrow and i'm still waiting for the manager's reply for the survey.. it's bad enough that i belong to a low performance group.. it's even worse when the group is using my stupid proposal for this AND the fact that it's my proposal, i have to liase with the stupid company and COME UP with intelligent questions and sugestions.. damn it! and i AM the one doing the freaking surveys! just becoz the stupid organisation sets so many 'rules'.. and my grpmates cant contribute in this aspect coz it's my SIP company.. why the hell do they want to use my suggestion in the first place.. why do i let them convince me to let them do on my proposal? juz bcoz others dont want to go back to their company doesnt mean that i am very willing to.. alright... watever.. deadline in 3 weeks and i have no right to complain at this point in time.. CPM kinda sucks...
went for acupuncture today..in total 9 needles, i have 6 needles on my face and 4 of them were on my nose.. felt totally like a voodoo doll waiting for doomsday.. the 'doctor' lit something on top of 3 of the needles and i can see SMOKE coming out.. not painful, but a rather weird experience.. i juz hope this will cure my sensitive nose..
met up with Judy and Aishah today.. turned out Didi wanted to intro some forever living thingy to us.. but we had a nice dinner over at some VERY ulu part of clarke Quay and fun times talking abt archery crap.. i sorta 'weigh' myself with this Tanita machine.. it's so high tech the readings tell me info like my BMI, fat %, calories needed, Fat mass, total bodywater, predicted weight and fat mass, plus how much fat u need to lose or gain.. lolx... fascinating.. and i'm still trying to register that i have a total of about 26 kg of water inside my body, plus a horrendous of about 9 kg of fat mass.. i can already visualise 9 1 litre bottles of ice-mountains floating around me.. juz that they're filled with lipids instead of water.. lolx...
but after seeing all thse funny figures, i'm relieved that i'm within the healthy range.. *phew.. sweat...
i swear this scale is evil.. harmful to a person's psychological wellbeing.. even a non-health conscious person like me start thinking about all the above crap.. imagine someone who is DYING to lose weight, or become slimmer.. they'll go crazy analysing all these.. lolx..
i got to work tomorrow and i'm still waiting for the manager's reply for the survey.. it's bad enough that i belong to a low performance group.. it's even worse when the group is using my stupid proposal for this AND the fact that it's my proposal, i have to liase with the stupid company and COME UP with intelligent questions and sugestions.. damn it! and i AM the one doing the freaking surveys! just becoz the stupid organisation sets so many 'rules'.. and my grpmates cant contribute in this aspect coz it's my SIP company.. why the hell do they want to use my suggestion in the first place.. why do i let them convince me to let them do on my proposal? juz bcoz others dont want to go back to their company doesnt mean that i am very willing to.. alright... watever.. deadline in 3 weeks and i have no right to complain at this point in time.. CPM kinda sucks...
Wednesday, December 28
couldnt resist not posting another entry.. this always happen at th most inconvenient timings, like when i'm tired and preparing to go to bed, or during the study week, even when i NEED to rush for some assignment.
it's my parents' 20th anniversary today, and my youngest sis' 10th birthday.. aint it sweet? to have ur wedding anniversary on the same date as one of your kid's birthday.. makes it even more worthwhile for some celebration...
and the fact that Xmas is just over and new year is coming adds on to the already overflowing happiness..
i have lots of things to share, but only 3 people to tell to. Me, myself and I..
please let me know if u're in need of some chinese inspirations, aka crap.. coz i have backup..
it's my parents' 20th anniversary today, and my youngest sis' 10th birthday.. aint it sweet? to have ur wedding anniversary on the same date as one of your kid's birthday.. makes it even more worthwhile for some celebration...
and the fact that Xmas is just over and new year is coming adds on to the already overflowing happiness..
i have lots of things to share, but only 3 people to tell to. Me, myself and I..
please let me know if u're in need of some chinese inspirations, aka crap.. coz i have backup..
I know why i like animes... love them in fact.. not all, but most..
Even animes like Sailormoon. dont remember hating it in Primary 5..
Sailor moon is so lucky to be a cartoon character. If i were a cartoon character, i'm sure i would not have any of the problems i'm having right now.. (NOT literally right NOW, but well, certain days of the year/s)
Even if i did, they would all be solved by the end of the episode..
and THAT, is exactly what i love about animes.. besides the part about being able to exaggerate everything in their lives and being absolutely nonsensical, making decisions with their hearts instead of their minds, being totally impractical.. and being allowed to do whatever that is socially NOT acceptable in real life... (like kicking down your bedroom door when u're pissed and jumping out of your window when u're late for school.. lolx)
In the event that any of you starts thinking that PJ is an absolute idiot at this point in time, i assure you i'm perfectly fine.. there is no need for me to visit the hougang chalet anytime soon.. thanks for volunteering to book appointment ya..
okie.. change topic. was listening to 93.3 this morning and heard this :
有些缘份是注定要失去的..
so to all my friends out there who are still nursing wounds, old and new, i hope that by the year 2006 comes, things will start looking brighter.. i know being pessimistic wont kill, but it doesnt hurt looking at things from a nicer perspective..
i know i'm not exactly a 'sharing' type of person.. but personally, i feel that since i've made up my mind to let go of certain things, should i just 'let them go' without harping on them time and again? i've been trying real hard to stop walking backwards OR staying stationary in life.. it's difficult.. i haven give up.. so i hope everyone out there wont..
okie.. so back on track.. why am i sprouting nonsense again? after slacking for so long? it's juz becoz 2 am seems like the perfect time for sharing, or trying to act smart.. lolx.. i haven been reflecting since ages ago.. xmas is like the best time to 'glance' backwards before i take a deep breath and jump.. into a new year.. i dunno about you, but i certainly wish for abundant happiness for all for this coming year.. and i hope good karma stays...
Even animes like Sailormoon. dont remember hating it in Primary 5..
Sailor moon is so lucky to be a cartoon character. If i were a cartoon character, i'm sure i would not have any of the problems i'm having right now.. (NOT literally right NOW, but well, certain days of the year/s)
Even if i did, they would all be solved by the end of the episode..
and THAT, is exactly what i love about animes.. besides the part about being able to exaggerate everything in their lives and being absolutely nonsensical, making decisions with their hearts instead of their minds, being totally impractical.. and being allowed to do whatever that is socially NOT acceptable in real life... (like kicking down your bedroom door when u're pissed and jumping out of your window when u're late for school.. lolx)
In the event that any of you starts thinking that PJ is an absolute idiot at this point in time, i assure you i'm perfectly fine.. there is no need for me to visit the hougang chalet anytime soon.. thanks for volunteering to book appointment ya..
okie.. change topic. was listening to 93.3 this morning and heard this :
有些缘份是注定要失去的..
so to all my friends out there who are still nursing wounds, old and new, i hope that by the year 2006 comes, things will start looking brighter.. i know being pessimistic wont kill, but it doesnt hurt looking at things from a nicer perspective..
i know i'm not exactly a 'sharing' type of person.. but personally, i feel that since i've made up my mind to let go of certain things, should i just 'let them go' without harping on them time and again? i've been trying real hard to stop walking backwards OR staying stationary in life.. it's difficult.. i haven give up.. so i hope everyone out there wont..
okie.. so back on track.. why am i sprouting nonsense again? after slacking for so long? it's juz becoz 2 am seems like the perfect time for sharing, or trying to act smart.. lolx.. i haven been reflecting since ages ago.. xmas is like the best time to 'glance' backwards before i take a deep breath and jump.. into a new year.. i dunno about you, but i certainly wish for abundant happiness for all for this coming year.. and i hope good karma stays...
Thursday, December 22
helped YP with her work as a backstage person with the M&M shows last saturday.. the aussies love s'poreans guy.. they cant stop saying "he's so cute".. they seemed to think that s'porean guys are cute, cool and romantic.. alright.. i'm trying hard not to roll my eyes here.. they like this 'cute' chef who can cook, with horrendous hair colour and tatoo on his hand.. and they want to bring the guy back to australia just because he gave them discounts, and wrote some 'sweet' poem and send it to one of them.. one of the girls ask me.. 'are all s'porean guys so sweet?' hmm... at that moment, i have the urge to intro maurice to them.. lolx.. they'll be swept off their feet... and they'll bring him back to australia without a doubt.. lolx.. so they were telling me that guys who speak English cant write poems for nuts.. but they forgotten something.. that chef can speak english.. if not how else can he come up with some nice 'angelic' poem in that language? they repeated that poem for an entire hour.. -_-"'.. some winged thingy, halo tingy, angel thingy, pretty thingy, haven thingy.... it'll be sweet if they know each other for some time.. but for a guy to send it to a girl whom he knows barely for a week, there's somehting weird.. and well, THEY think that the guy is the best thing that happened to them in the entire singapore, for the entire month!! oh my.. looks like all the campaigns, advertisements and attractions that the govt came up with cant compare to some ah beng chef.. lolx...
okie... paragraphing problem, as usual.. but watever.. btw, the blue is not my whole head duh.. arbo i'll look like an alien.. it's one of the highlighted strands.. and i was told it'll turn to ash color after a while.. PJ is not as siao as u think i've become.. lolx
okie... paragraphing problem, as usual.. but watever.. btw, the blue is not my whole head duh.. arbo i'll look like an alien.. it's one of the highlighted strands.. and i was told it'll turn to ash color after a while.. PJ is not as siao as u think i've become.. lolx
Tuesday, December 20
I have had enough of the word 'calendar'.. almost everyone has been asking me about that since two weeks ago. I have one standard reply. 'Burn it!'
I've decided to intro some minor changes to my very (extremely)... peaceful... life. so i changed my hairstyle, dyed and highlighted my hair. then i realised that the only good thing about this change is that i haven change at all. i look different, but i'm still pretty much the same.. now i say tell pple not to judge by appearance.
should have decided on green instead of blue as the color inside. should have more purple and lighter shades.. regret being scared of my hair turning out like 3 years ago. should have sth really different.. whatever la.. i just have to add those choices in when i do touch up the next time..
PJ is not in her right mind. the dyes have gotten into her brain, causing intoxication. so she's poisoned.
I've decided to intro some minor changes to my very (extremely)... peaceful... life. so i changed my hairstyle, dyed and highlighted my hair. then i realised that the only good thing about this change is that i haven change at all. i look different, but i'm still pretty much the same.. now i say tell pple not to judge by appearance.
should have decided on green instead of blue as the color inside. should have more purple and lighter shades.. regret being scared of my hair turning out like 3 years ago. should have sth really different.. whatever la.. i just have to add those choices in when i do touch up the next time..
PJ is not in her right mind. the dyes have gotten into her brain, causing intoxication. so she's poisoned.
Tuesday, December 13
Here again.
Christmas is coming. 2005 isn't prepared for the season of joy. No magical feeling, no love in the air, nothing. I am used to the feeling of magic fading into nothingness after Xmas every year. This year, it's horrible. It's as if fireworks turning into stardust before they light up.. okay. i'm not making sense again..
I hate this feeling, this void at this time of the year when i should be happy, contented and sensible. Xmas should be the perfect end to this year and a great start to the next. that's why it's always special. the magic is gone.. or maybe it's just me that's not forward looking.. me that's reluctant to move on.
growing up, growing up. i am ageing, but will i be matured?
newspaper reading during breakfast is fast becoming a bad start to my day. i dont understand why i am still flipping thru the newspapers when i know that i dont need an insight to what's what's happening to the world to move on in my life. everyday, they have bad news.. they are mostly horrible things that run through my mind first thing in the morning. seldom will i see happy news.. they are merely reports of some successful marketing strategies.. if the papers talk about some foreigners having a wonderful marriage here, somehow i see it as a successful marketing feat that has been implemented by whatever companies or part of the govt's plan to attract tourists or create awareness.. you may think that i'm crazy, but i absolutely dislike all these crap. but i still read them nonetheless. so maybe i'm crazy afterall.
so, i dun really know why i'm posting this when i should start on my edu trip reflection. yeah.. procrastinating as usual.. and reluctant to sleep.. if tml never come..
Christmas is coming. 2005 isn't prepared for the season of joy. No magical feeling, no love in the air, nothing. I am used to the feeling of magic fading into nothingness after Xmas every year. This year, it's horrible. It's as if fireworks turning into stardust before they light up.. okay. i'm not making sense again..
I hate this feeling, this void at this time of the year when i should be happy, contented and sensible. Xmas should be the perfect end to this year and a great start to the next. that's why it's always special. the magic is gone.. or maybe it's just me that's not forward looking.. me that's reluctant to move on.
growing up, growing up. i am ageing, but will i be matured?
newspaper reading during breakfast is fast becoming a bad start to my day. i dont understand why i am still flipping thru the newspapers when i know that i dont need an insight to what's what's happening to the world to move on in my life. everyday, they have bad news.. they are mostly horrible things that run through my mind first thing in the morning. seldom will i see happy news.. they are merely reports of some successful marketing strategies.. if the papers talk about some foreigners having a wonderful marriage here, somehow i see it as a successful marketing feat that has been implemented by whatever companies or part of the govt's plan to attract tourists or create awareness.. you may think that i'm crazy, but i absolutely dislike all these crap. but i still read them nonetheless. so maybe i'm crazy afterall.
so, i dun really know why i'm posting this when i should start on my edu trip reflection. yeah.. procrastinating as usual.. and reluctant to sleep.. if tml never come..
I have only 1 paper for mid-sem. This is luxury compared to all the other semesters.. 14 hours of lessons per week is haven if i have done 30 hours in the past.. it's like slacker by more than half..
and i have no idea why i agreed to use my proposal for the grp proj in the first place.. i'm going crazy contacting the company.. pple giving empty promises, they dont care what i am doing and i feel as if everything THEY provided me with (especially info) is like they're obliged to help me and that i SHOULD feel thankful.. maybe i'm wrong, but my grpmates saw the DM 'very nice' attitude towards me when i asked her something.. and that stupid George cant be contacted.. he's either out of the office, or out of the office. damn. then the secretary has to apologise and ask me to call back time and again, until she recognises me.. =X this is getting worse..
i have yet to ask ching for a session of KBOX, after wanting to for like MONTHS, and i haven watch that damn harry potter movie, after waiting for the show for like weeks.. and i haven got down to completing my stupid edu trip reflection, after making my mind for like days.. so the edu trip reflection cost me a dear $1200 worth of 1500 words and it's due in like 2 days time.. dun get me wrong.. the trip is still fun, but the reflection part is much loathed.
okie.. i complain too much. SHUT UP Peijun!
and i have no idea why i agreed to use my proposal for the grp proj in the first place.. i'm going crazy contacting the company.. pple giving empty promises, they dont care what i am doing and i feel as if everything THEY provided me with (especially info) is like they're obliged to help me and that i SHOULD feel thankful.. maybe i'm wrong, but my grpmates saw the DM 'very nice' attitude towards me when i asked her something.. and that stupid George cant be contacted.. he's either out of the office, or out of the office. damn. then the secretary has to apologise and ask me to call back time and again, until she recognises me.. =X this is getting worse..
i have yet to ask ching for a session of KBOX, after wanting to for like MONTHS, and i haven watch that damn harry potter movie, after waiting for the show for like weeks.. and i haven got down to completing my stupid edu trip reflection, after making my mind for like days.. so the edu trip reflection cost me a dear $1200 worth of 1500 words and it's due in like 2 days time.. dun get me wrong.. the trip is still fun, but the reflection part is much loathed.
okie.. i complain too much. SHUT UP Peijun!
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