jinx or jinx not?

darn.. really dun feel like typing the same content twice.. but i want to confess..

i think i am a jinx.. really. jinx to team s'pore..

u know y ronald susilo lost to that thailand guy? coz i was watching the competition on tv mobile during the journey home.. and it's a terrible ending.. to lose by a point is still alright.. but 1-15?

service over too many times i think.. until the opponent made him real tired.. adn the speed they play is very different.. the thailand guy very "fierce" in "attacks" i think, while susilo quite weak at "defending".. the game also very draining, with them running all ard the court.. and the thailand guy's backhand quite zai.. he even "flew" to save a "shot".. sounds like volleyball ya?

anyway, i dun like what the stupid commentator says.. abt s'pore govt million dollar reward for an olympics gold medal and so on.. kept harping on the whole stupid monetary benefits.. make the govt seems so in need of recognition and the player so desperate for money, which is not the case...

remember a few yrs back when the table tennis team almost got into top 3 and the whole nation was hoping for our 1st gold medal in either the SEA games or olympics.. the time when jing jun hong became famous overnight? yeah.. she got 4th coz i was watching thw whole competiton that time, live.. same to susilo.. i was watching the show LIVE tonight, so he lost..

but cannot blame him also.. the whole nation anticipating and keeping our hopes high for the 1st olympics gold medal ever possible.. newspapers with his news everyday, nt to mention radio stations and tv progs with his latest news.. high media coverage sia.. of course stressed coz of the pressure the whole nation, not to mention the world, put on him.. coz no matter what, he beats the world's no. 1..

and u know y susilo won lin dan? yeah.. coz i aint watching thruout.. i missed abt half of the 2nd round to the ending.. see.. these kinda LIVE events i better stay away.. arbo sure giv them bad luck de.. feel so unlucky suddenly.. it's as if the world's spotlight dimmed..

ok.. i think i seriously need a break.. can never get enuff of slp, work is piling up, training performance stagnant, and not to forget my face seem as though it'll never get a chance to heal!! i need more rest, more water, more exercise, more sleep... and i think my wisdom tooth giving me a prob now.. it's super irritating.. cant chew properly sia.. feels like half a granny.. haizz.. and the time i spend in sch seems more than the time i stay at home.. sianzzzz...

ok. i'm so tired that i even forgotten to be grateful and happy.. until juz.. got back accounting mid-term paper.. didnt do VERY well, but still, one of the highest in the cls.. and i still loathe those pple who goes "u get so high, dun friend u already" or "dun tok to u liao lah" when pple score higher.. what is their problem seriously? someone can tell me? hear that kinda thing, sieh sian de.. like primary skl kids sia.. want to get high marks, pray harder and work harder.. dun flash the killer eyes only after we get back the paper.. or point fingers.. cannot stand it..

and i also almost forgotten to be disappointed and note the negative things.. BESE presentation today.. didnt do well.. too nervous.. dunno wat the hell i'm doing.. after so many presentations i still so nervous.. dunno for what.. i know there's nothing to be scared of.. but in a cls, no confidence at all.. damn! anyway, some probs in the cls.. between the pple and diff grps.. sian... diff pple in the grp pissed at diff pple in other grps, wat happened, wat went wrong, at themselves, at others and all.. stupid nair.. didnt tell us earlier.. his fault lah.. if he told us earlier, or at least try out, den we'll save alot of trouble, alot of bad mood and alot of untold discomfort amongst the class, plus elimimate the weird air that hung ard after that.. damn. another stupid thing.. waste time sia.. spoiler.

too tired to blog recently.. after typing 1 sentence, i gave up..

learnt grp dynamics in OB today.. the part abt the 5 stages of grp development caught my attention..

stage 1:
Forming- individuals are courteous and cautious. members are testing each other to see how compatible they are.
these 2 points are real true.. is that the acting that we always say? and wat abt making judgements? if we judge based on 1st impression or the first few encounters, we might draw certain conclusions that tend to be untrue.. like wat Mr. Nah said, grp proj, one person quiet.. it may be social loafing, due to shyness, and not that the person doesnt want to contribute.. i dunno.. seems like me..

culi sci meeting like not going very smoothly.. so many things to cover and so few pple doing it.. many thanks to eve, karene, eileen and those who helped in some way or another.. the menu that karene came up with is fabulous.. i love the idea and concept.. simple with the "wow" factor.. love it, love it, love it!!

sorry eve for letting u down.. my cls cannot make it de.. and i didnt help much either.. end up u like did 3/4 of the proj urself, tiring urself out.. rest more k..

listening to songs that guowei sent me a few days ago.. very nice songs.. pri sch partner.. i thot wont get the chance to tok to each other again.. but who knows so heng his gf is my best pal..

so here are 3 recommend songs:
1) [chong dong] by zhang ke fan
2) [Ai ren hao lei] by Zhong Jian Fen Zhi
3) [till i get over u] by michelle branch

raised my voice this morning.. coz of sth that someone told me.. the tone was wrong, all wrong.. and the things the person say.. couldnt stand it, esp after a bad morning.. bus packed, pple gave me the "buay song" face and all.. sianz..

muz learn to control... anyway, saw fifi's nick.. i like it

"The walls i build around me to keep out the sadness also keeps out the joy.."

ya hor.. barriers to entry.. :|

saw siew wen today.. some blue house junior in sec sch.. she's in hospi also.. couldnt rem her name at 1st.. didnt even know she's in tp.. much less the course she is in.. think junior i only got keep in contact wif mark.. sports day and the ceremony b4 the events happened like 2 yrs ago? and i feel so old? old but not of age to go to the 3rd brewery organised for hospi students.. sianz...
thinking abt it hor.. i'll finish half of my poly education b4 i turn 18.. lolx.. that's like super young? and within 2 yrs i'll be out in the workforce... contributing to s'pore's economy, yadda yadda..

couldnt believe i stayed up to watch olympics.. lolx.. susilo is leading!! hope he wins.. every point he leads, i'll have the "yeah, woo hoo" feeling.. lolx..

go s'pore go~

on my way home in the afternoon, caught in the rain, feeling wet and cold... couldnt run across meihui's block to the next den to my block.. so i decided to wait at the void deck for the rain to get smaller.. there's a tv at the recre corner over at the next block.. and i stood there and watched the gymnastics, tuning in to tv mobile and listening to the commentary with my phone.. lolx.. think anyone who walked past would be thinking that i'm crazy..

by the event was really great! saw one of the near-perfect "performance"... that bar is sooo super thin.. how they do backflips, cartwheels and flips on that small piece of woood? wonders of the world sia.. haha

and in the morning i watched abit of the dance... latin dance bah.. i dunno the category.. haha.. they look as if their waist is so flexible that can turn 360 degrees.. haha..

the swimming categories.. phelps.. WC.. den the aust team events also WC sia..!!! so li hai... s'pore wont be able to catch up.. ever.. haha.. nt that i dun hav confidence.. but, well, we're super small for a small country.. lolx..

enuff said. gotta go back to my tv le. nitey peeps~

~Soliloquy~

i didnt know what this word means before thurs..
now i do.

meanings:
-A dramatic or literary form of discourse in which a character talks to himself or herself or reveals his or her thoughts without addressing a listener.
-A specific speech or piece of writing in this form of discourse.
-The act of speaking to oneself.

all these i confirm can relate to. so ya. soliloquy... in blogger.. sounds so literature ya? so pro~ so chim~

eve suggested using the word as the proj theme.. the explanation is so ~ heavenly~ ...
heaven's soliloquy.. sounds perfect ya?

i realised i fell in love with the word.. couldnt get it out of my mind.. soli, solilo, soliloquy...

"wat would u do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?"

i thot of this before.. i know that when i am happy, i ought to cherish the moment.. but sadness after happiness is quite unbearable.. the only way to stop this is to be neutral.. neutral in almost everything.. only then would u be able to control your emotions... however, by doing so, u'll deprive urself of experiencing, of feeling...

it has been ages since i last laugh.. laugh not as in grin, nor smile.. but laugh, without sound effects.. that's the thing i missed most..

look at it this way.. if we go thru the 10 moments of sadness first, then the period would seem too long compared to the 1 moment of happiness.. and after that 1 moment of happiness, u'll start to feel cheated because the length of happiness that u experienced is much shorter than the sadness...

anyway, it's a lose-lose situation.. alot of thoughts.. cant blog it down.. forget it.

smokers.. go away lah...

darn pissed now.. those smokers!! ok. qY told me tt wq's dad died of lung cancer, coz of second hand smoke. SECOND-HAND SMOKE!! y not let those idiotic brainless morons smoke themselves to death and NOT make others suffer? coz of their stupidity?? this is juz so damn unfair..

smokers.. sux. y cant they juz go to some inhabited island to live, away from us, all of them, and smoke themselves to death there? inhale all those toxins, all those chemicals, and affect one another? may they get lung cancer and die in polluted air. darn buay song now.. coz of that 1 sentence. ARGH!!! smokers juz go away.. u all aint helping the environment.. the govt is doing so much to make everything environmental friendly and those spoilers juz smoke 1 packet of cigarette per day and there goes all our effort!! all those ozone-layer CFC-free labels.. WTH!! juz let all the smokers die, den we can save trees coz less trees would need to be cut down for the producton of cigerettes (the packaging and the cigerette itself), save manpower, direct them to other more meaningful departments, lower crime rates, "healthier" citizens, present a better image of s'pore coz our pple wont all look like drug addicts wif the craving for smoking, yellow teeth, and the stance!! pungent and chocking smell.. get rid of all that.. if we can eliminate all these "black sheeps" in our society, den i think we can do without the save-the-world campaign for like 3 yrs.. and may even grant special permission to pentel to produce liquid paper WITHOUT the green label..

my grandparents WERE smokers.. y cant others do the same? juz QUIT.. we hav so many hotlines helping others to quit, go into any hospital or polyclinic to find out more info as to how to seek help, wat u can do, how others can help etc.. tk the 1st step.. losers shldnt complain..they dun hav the right to anyway..

ok. i sound like some ignorant brat.. but who cares man, seriously.. watever.. i say wat i like.. lalaa.. and smokers can jolly well *siam one side.. dun dirty the air around me. thank you for your kind act.. ur generousity and courtesy will be remembered. and i will jolly well pass this act of kindness on.. pass it on, pass it on, pass it on... so u can siam one side, siam far far, go away.. ;D

received the news on my way to SGH this afternoon.. boling msg and asked if i'm free this sunday.. if i am then we'll all go and visit weiqiang coz sth happened to him.. 1st thing that comes into my mind "pls no.. dun tell me he's in the hospital too.." i called bl, and she told me that his dad passed away.. F4 E1... it feels like ages ago..

took 65 to harbourfront den change train to outram.. dun ask me y i chose that route, i juz did.. stayed in the hospital till 8.. and reached home at 9..

caught the last 15 mins of the 9pm show.. xiaoyan was saying sth that i can relate to.. on the surface, we seem to live a very fruitful life with busy schedules and exciting plans.. but dun u find that after awhile, u dunno y u are so busy with wat u're doing?? u dunno y u do wat u did? u feel empty?? u all it loneliness? 寂寞的常客, i am, too..

my cousin juz came back from some island in thailand and was chatting with me abt how nice the island is.. and i feel the need to get away.. away from everything.. juz somewhere for me to not be me..

wat do i want out of life? enjoyment? happiness or sheer torture? i guess most of us chose the last option so that we can enjoy our happiness when days get better?? i dunno..

alot of thots.. but i cant seem to blog them down.. all i do nowadays is to blog down my day to day activities.. as if everyone is interested in this boring life of mine..

for now, let me rest.

dim sum dollies..

watched dim sum dollies today.. it rox!!!!!!!

Emma can really dance.. haha.. twist i mean.. hehe.. and the different songs are great!! set me laughing again and again..

LOVE the theme song.. and the action of the 喝茶,吃点心,点心点心 gestures!!

Bigger is better and larger is good.. so upsize ur life... lolx..

and the giggling girls!!! really reminds me of last time.. gigggles till cant stop.. at the slightest things.. when a bunch of gers is together, we'll chat and gossip.. cant stop us frm giggling.. hahaha

and the palace prisoner from tokyo... real funny i tell u... coz mother theresa appeared and when the crying ger tried to say sth, mother T said sth like "i haven finish" lolx..

and the today no go home... hahahahahahaha.... old pple in no go home old folks home.. one called ah Mm, one called ah soh and one called ah ger... lolx

think the stand up, nip tuck sucks, upper crust, OTT not so good..

part 2 is great!!!!!!!!

from the parking pontianak, to maid in heaven (the male dancers wear wings and act like angels cleaning cotton clouds... lolx.. so cute!! "see the statistics" hahahahaa.. think only those who watched will know wat i'm saying.. lolx..), and the SQ and s'pore girl!!!! so cool!!! it's very local!! very easy to relate to.. and it's english plus abit of dialect, chinese.. cham cham mix... so rojak.. like singlish!!! it is singlish!!!! and the finale, the 6 male dancers wore sarong kebya, walked out of the fake airplane they set up, wore heeld, and dance like women!!! budden ending they took off their heels, put them nicely in front, and did the "tell a name u do a stunt" thingy.. never hav i seen guys dancing lidat... graceful as gers but yet aggressive at times also.. aiya.. hard to explain.. it's nice.. lolx..

the applauding at the end was soOOOoooOOOOooOOoooOOoooOOoooOOooOOoooOOooo long that they kept bowing... lolx.. we juz wont stop... and they did an encore.. before tt, the show ended with those concert style.. the fireworks behind and some popping of long silvery strands of things.. hahaha.... didnt expect them to do such things indoor.. in the durian!!!

there's this part they sang spore songs that we hear during NDP.. den they joked abt the show "sex in the city", say sth abt the cabinet affairs.. den towards the end they took out their spore flags( small ones, we're also given one each) and waved.. that moment i looked ard, the feeling is soooo s'pore.. as if we're all soo patriotic.. waving flags and singing spore songs.. hahaha....

hmm.. it's so local that i juz couldnt help not enjoying every moment of it.. regretted not watching forbidden city last time.. wanted to watch it.. but didnt..coz tt yr i participated in NDP.. so very busy.. heard edelina said that it was great!! sadden~

after the show we revert back to the old days.. excited abt taking photos.. we took abt 30 shots!! haha.. all weird poses, funny actions, crazy spur-of-the-moment thingy.. lolx... actually i say so much also no use.. nvm.. forget it.. hahahaha

okie.. i had so much fun in the eving that i almost forgot to mention.. meeting at 9.. i reached at 845.. waited till 915.. called and msg.. some juz woke up, others NEVER reply.. didnt want to get mad, so i went o the library to slack.. read some books.. the system is down.. sian.. turned out tt some woke up late, some THOT the meeting was supposed to be at 10, some didnt even care.. good.. i dun either..

is this coincidental??

was in blogger mainpage when i clicked on the recent blog updated link and found these.. i think it's fate that i juz so happened to come across this person's blog.. s'porean...

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It would have been easier ... if my mistake affects only myself.

But as with most mistakes, the repercussions are felt by others too. The "sorry" spoken at the end of every major mistake is always weak. It repairs nothing and undo nothing.

Sometimes you wonder, why you say it anyway.

But undernealth it, lies some personal struggles.

*Sigh

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One must not cease to find one's purpose in life. Everything that ever happen in your life is merely part of a larger design. One does not live in isolation. The choices we made everyday carries repercussions far further we will ever comprehend. We must make it a point to do all things in love.

Love is more than a feeling.

It is a choice.

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(Preview from Singapore Idol 3)

Dick Lee; eyes burning with rage, shouting at one of the contestants.

"You think you are something? Now you are NOTHING ! GET OUT !!!"

Somehow, it sounded like God ... shouting at me.

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and this :
Here is my world of thoughts. Nothing more then the randomness that hits me day to day and of course, with a spin on what I believe. All I ask, is that if you don't like what I write, click the little X in the upper right hand corner.

someone wrote this in his or her blog, and it juz so nice coincides with wat i posted last time.. the last sentence.. this is amazing~

and i saw my bro's fren's blog!! so heng.. clicked on a couple of them only.. saw his pic.. looked familiar.. lolx.. this is soooo funny...

term break.. no use.

went to panpac wif steph ytd.. den to suntec.. bought a presentation skirt and ate sakae.. broke le.. training today.. was in a good mood at first.. den after tt dunno y back to usual.. shot the small target face at 1st.. den after that round 2 we shot the 122 target face.. after like months of not shooting big target face.. of course score better.. but still not ideal.. sianz...

i realised that after shooting for awhile, when i am tired (that's what ken says), i'll start to see 2 sight.. and i cant aim, cant anchor, so i juz anyhow watever~

bow training better than previous weeks.. was kinda sian.. we were told to reach tembusu at 1230.. budden we're not supposed to shoot till those pple in LTC go some ALP or APL thingy.. watever that is.. so we juz sit ard and wait.. wait for them to finish their lunch and siam.. so sian.. set up everything den cannot shoot..

was asked to lead the jog today.. heard someone behind saying "run so slow".. and i was thinking.. maybe i shld juz turn ard and tell him tt the coach asked me to keep to that pace.. and it isnt very fair for those who can run faster to cut ahead of others and leave the slower ones behind, with leaving lesser time for them to rest before the shoot..

k. it's impossible to like everyone in this world.. so i shall juz keep quiet..

hmm.. 1st impression does make a difference.. juz by the way a person speaks.. perception..

anyway, i realised that i'm operating on the self-serving bias theory.. tendancy to attribute gd results and performance to internal factors and failures to external causes like luck.. like i always say during training, it's a heng suay thing...

tml will be a LONGGGGggGGGgGGGgggggGgggggg day... 9 o'clock meeting for BESE, den 1 o'clock meeting for culi sci.. den evening going to watch dim sum dollies... hope it's nice.. lolx..

saw carol in suntec sakae ytd.. she transferred from kovan to suntec.. told me that business there is bad.. old outlet's staff almost all gone le.. kelvin going to NS soon, the rest all left, left jeff.. there goes the old times.. the blast-chinese-songs-during-duty, the hand signals and the conference at night... shu yue promoted to supervisor.. ah feng auntie got breast cancer, wah eng auntie's husband passed away... william in east point after being transferred to OUB.. so many things happened in 1 yr.. jeff got a daughter le.. the only person i think doesnt change much is suijing.. saw her sometime back with her bf.. she didnt see me.. good..

shot 2 rounds, plus team, plus bow exercises, plus lots of jacks!! i did like 44 counts of 8 jumping jacks in total today.. plus pumpings... didnt feel much.. like usual, i think my body is there, soul somewhere there, mind somewhere else..

回到未来

someone told me this today: 回到未来

and suddenly, i feel weird.. the person who told me that is a nun.. i saw her in the temple.. i dunno y she said that to me, but i didnt ask.. was telling my mom abt it and she told me that i shld asked.. if i didnt, i wont know. but to me, certain things are not meant to be known.. to me..

sunday morning... stupid alarm..

Don't go around saying that the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first.

You must not sit around all complacent and wait for an exceptional life to find you. Taking no action IS an action. If you are doing nothing to move your life forward, you are still doing something, by making the decision to remain in the same place. So indirectly, inaction IS an action. You must act or be acted upon.

I knew ALL these.. Yet i am NOT doing anything to improve.. it doesn't make sense does it??

I think people can be divided into 2 kinda. those who think about what happened, and does nothing, and those who doesn't wonder but does the things that need to be done.. and sadly, i belong to the first group.. Thinking doesn't make anyone better.. It sort of creates the feeling of staying at square 1, even though we might not be..

amazingly, the 1st prayer i include is correct.. this is a new one.. never hear b4 de..

Guardian Angel from heaven so bright,
Watching beside me to lead me aright,
Fold thy wings round me, and guard me with love,
Softly sing songs to me of heaven above

Dam Bo Siao

blog music: Richard_Clayderman_-_Ballade_Pour_Adeline

nice right??

anyway, after OB today, culi meeting was______... steph, peiling and tina all going crazy waiting for me, nixon and huihui.. wanted to go klunch at 1st de.. budden coz we drag and drag, no time le.. when we reached orchard, another nightmare.. it's pple mountain pple sea.. sea of red, sea of agony, full of pple wearing red, the NATIONAL colour!!

kbox full.. muz book.. so in the end we went to eat edo buffet.. aint commenting on their service and food.. anyway, i sae ZY and i think that's her bf.. twice in a day.. when i was rushing to the test venue coz i was late, and when i was eating with the 5 of them.. they were planning to eat in edo also, den she saw me, den the 2 of them hide behind the big menu for quite long, den they took the escalator up.. think she told him sth.. coz he looked into the outlet.. after awhile den they came back to eat.. haha.. am i a monster or sth?? y muz hide??

anyway, met up with aining and esther in the evening... we wanted to watch ella enchanted at 1st but the tix all sold out... den aining suggested The Village.. but steph watching tml wif her bf.. and den i told them i'll be watching with my fren.. so in the end the movie plan was cancelled.. went to swensens... damn full by then.. watch the 2 da xiao jie eat and we chat.. haha.. was laughing the whole time.. the 7 of us so much crap lor... making the most noise in the whole restaurant.. enjoyed the slacking time thoroughly..

the bunch of guys sitting at the table next to us kept eavesdropping.. and amongst themselves, they repeat wat we were saying.. damn irritating.. maybe coz i was sitting nearest to them tt's y i heard.. the rest of them still laughing away.. haha.. nv tell them.. dun wanna spoil their mood..

walked out of swensens full and contented.. aining suggested go far east walk walk.. so we went.. i resisted ALL temptations to eat my Fruit Flo.. in the end they managed to psycho my to eat the turkish ice-cream.. the place is located at some ulu part of far east that i NEVER even knew exsisted.. the ice-cream is fabulous.. NOT sweet, not filling.. juz gave me the contented feeling (again) after eating.. furthermore, that's ice-cream with an attitude, so i say, coz got entertainment also.. haha.. the few of us were having fun playing with the person.. haha.. or rather, he was having fun "performing"...

OB was a killer.. hope i pass.. went in late, very kan cheong.. den anyhow pong the answers.. hope i somehow managed to bluff my way thru... hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

it's nice to know that someone remember sth abt u that u didnt even notice.. nicey feeling.. haha.. k lah.. tt's all crap..

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i siao liao lah.. going crazy soon..

after accounting paper..

i feel so dumb today.. was telling myself that i got to reach sch b4 8.50 so i woke up at 6.. stupid me!! it was when i was on the bus that i realised that i am way too early for the test.. reached sch at 7.30.. only a few souls there.. so i sat somewhere and stare into space.. the weather is sooo cold again this morning.. maybe coz it's early, that's y it's cold.. i dunno..

accounting test ar.. i guess i'm quite lucky today.. at 1st my balance sheet couldnt balance.. no matter how i check, all my calculations and all correct.. so i gave up and did the other qns.. left the last 10 mins den i realised that my mistake is in my P&L statement... heng lor.. changed the things and juz nice hand in.. but dunno correct or not lor.. hopefully bah..

test and exam period i always abit eccentric de.. stress? dun think so.. i so relaxed sia.. stress what? this morning, i was wondering if dreams coincide with reality.. coz last night, i dreamt that i was in pain.. real pain, until i woke up.. budden when i was awake, i couldnt confirm if it was really a dream or i really was in pain, woke up and went back to sleep.. if dreams are real, then it shld be painless.. but if it's real, then y does it seem so much like a dream?? anyway, crap.. forgive me.. the crazy bacteria getting into my head..

here's some analysis thingy from birthdate: quite true huh??
You are Green Fawn, whose expression and attitude seems slow and lacks energetic action.
You are quiet and don't say much.
You will not show your inner feelings to people easily.
You have the heart of a young child, and although you may act bit selfish, you will not make enemies.
You are shy and reserved, and tends to be bit like dreaming little girl.
By depending on others you express yourself, and therefore people find it hard to hate you.
You are not very good at handling real world.
You are interested in emotional and mental fields.
And tend to study subjects like religion and mysterious things.
You have a tendency to be self satisfied, but you yourself do not mind that at all.
You actually enjoy that.
You are good at fending off other people's frustration and anger.
Therefore you don't get caught up in troubles, and are able to lead a quiet and peaceful life.
You can not stand difficult situations, and will easily give things up.
If you can work with those people who are gentle and kind, they can bring out your inner talent.

looking for recipes online for the fri culi sc meeting.. found sooooo many that i would like to try out and eat.. haha.. but i have to take into consideration the preparation time, cost, and all.. resisted the urge to include all raspberry-related dessert recipes.. haha.. coz i know that quite a number of pple doesnt really like raspberry.. haha..

dunno lah.. during the break still muz meet up for the try-outs and deciding on the ONE.. and Ron told me that we got to meet up during the break to prepare for BESE presentation during the 1st week of term 2.. haizz... sianz......

and i'm such a mega slacker that i dunno wat to do sia.. accounting less than half done.. but luckily i read thru OB ytd.. haha.. so not so bad..

A-Teens's song: hi and goodbye.. decided to include only the 1st part..

I see you walking down the street
I catch your eye before we meet
But you look down to check your feet
I wish I'd say are you okay?
You're looking better everyday
But I just smile to walk away


hahaha... hi but no goodbye... hahaha...

brotherhood

watched "brotherhood" today.. didnt expect the show to affect me, but it did.

went to cine, but we were late bt 8 mins (and my cousin didnt want to miss the show) so we went to causeway point to watch the later show..

ate at oodles, was enjoying my food until my cousin asked me to check the time.. we were almost late, but we didnt miss the show.. coz of the advertisements and all.. luckily~

my cousin was asking me y i so cold-blooded, as if i'm not affected by the show.. but little does she knows that i teared. i dun cry, i dun sob. i tear. my eyes was in it's "open" stage thru the show.. coz when u open ur eyes wider, tears dun fall that easily.. and bcoz i know myself (i hope), i know that when i start to cry, it's the end... i wont stop.. the show very touching at times, and sad...

the plot is damn good (to me), the director is very kiang, juz tt the cameraman abit lousy.. haha.. i sit middle row, then the screen abit too big, the camera jerks and movements abit hard to make out what the situation is..

war~ haizz.. too many comments to make, so little space to write... so i decided not to include my point of view... pple wont like it if u say sth that they dun wanna hear anyway..

never regret watching the show.. it's the same for behind enemy line(s)?? great shows!!!

alright at 1st, den mood dipped.. mood didnt exactly dipped.. juz tt when it's more of a one-to-one conversation, i'll tend to be unreasonable.. i AM.

i got this frm a fren's profile:

"i look fierce. "wat u see is wat u get" - doesnt work for my case. it takes time to know the real me. first impression counts but does not mean that's wad u get. luv the frens who have been by my side. trusting me. supporting me. u all know who u r. i hope so. hate to put on make-up. dey waste alot of time. thou makes one look prettier for only a period of time. cinderella before 12 mid-night."

and i TOTALLY agree with her!!!

sometimes, dun ask if u think u wont like wat i'm going to say.. and sometimes, entertainment can be so exhausting, esp if i'm the entertainer..

go ahead.. plan an outing for 4.. i know u'll not.. even if u somehow managed to, it will NEVER happen... and i dun wanna be there at that time to "witness a miracle".. i am NEVER the glue.. so count me out for this sticky, stinky job.. ur kind intentions are appreciated, although u never brought the whole idea up to me. luckily u didnt. i dun wanna start another big hoo-ha over nothing..

i dunno y i am affected by this useless kinda thing.. i ought to focus on more impt issues at hand.. call me stupid, go ahead.. but for ur info, i tried to change, i've changed, but i'm still me. the same person that i used to hate myself for being.. i cant think of anything to do abt myself.

someone plz tell me the meaning and definition of "me".

the sunday times

hmm... sunday came and went like wind sia.. and i haven start on any of my term papers.. sianz.. dun feel like starting anyway.. went out with yong and qi in the evening, to HM.. haha.. planning to watch brotherhood with them tml.. hmm... not very enthu abt the show sia.. but i'm DYING to go out... haha..

anyway, i quit my "job" as a housewife.. my mom's taking over now.. haha..

i dun think we need that many different kinds sia.. 1 each is more den enuff..

btw, i saw xiaowei on channel U ytd.. some looking for ou xiang show.. wah piang.. juz so happened to switch channel, den nv take note of the name, den i switched again, den i saw her face, looks familiar, but diff.. after awhile den i realised that it's her!! hmm.. bad luck for her sia.. didnt even get pass the 1st round.. hmm.. well, she's in TP design sch now.. hmm.. so "heng" sia.. when i told sam, she was laughing like dunno wat sia.. looks like fren's sis's fren doesnt really help much huh?? haha..

missed the times when we were so gam.. make noise, buay kia xia suay.. haizz.. guess i'll never have the chance to meet up with all of them again.. =(

pesta sukan end of august.. dont feel anything at all.. think the excited feeling gone liao.. or maybe coz it's still so far away.. and i haven submit my goals for pesta sia.. deadline near liao.. not that i dun wanna do but simply bcoz i absolutely have no idea wat to include and how to explain.. certain things are felt, not expressed in words.. and my vocab limited.. how to explain clearly and fully? i really dunno.. planning to tk 1 step at a time..

note of the day:
sometimes when u hesitate to cross the border, u'll miss the chance forever.. but if u somehow did, it's nearer to the end than u thought it is. either way, u're at the losing end. it's a lose-lose situation.. u'll never win.. so y bother? sianz.... hand me the time-turner pls...

NOTICEBOARD:

[note.of.the.day]
to.all:
i.am.now.a.qualified.full.time.housewife.
pls.contact.me.if.there's.any.household.chores.to.do.for.a.tiny.amount.of.S11.
can.do.almost.everything.other.than.cooking.
specialise.in.sweeping.floor, washing.clothes.using.washing.machine, hanging.clothes, ironing.clothes, making.the.bed, feeding.pets, packing.things.
so.wait.no.more...give.yourself.that.long.deserved.break.from.the.routine.lifestyle.of.staying.in.the.house.and.busying.urself.having.no.life.at.all..
contact.me.for.more.details.. glad.to.be.of.help. 23.hr.service, meaning.i.dun.work.24/7.. bookings.available.
thank.you.