jinx or jinx not?

darn.. really dun feel like typing the same content twice.. but i want to confess..

i think i am a jinx.. really. jinx to team s'pore..

u know y ronald susilo lost to that thailand guy? coz i was watching the competition on tv mobile during the journey home.. and it's a terrible ending.. to lose by a point is still alright.. but 1-15?

service over too many times i think.. until the opponent made him real tired.. adn the speed they play is very different.. the thailand guy very "fierce" in "attacks" i think, while susilo quite weak at "defending".. the game also very draining, with them running all ard the court.. and the thailand guy's backhand quite zai.. he even "flew" to save a "shot".. sounds like volleyball ya?

anyway, i dun like what the stupid commentator says.. abt s'pore govt million dollar reward for an olympics gold medal and so on.. kept harping on the whole stupid monetary benefits.. make the govt seems so in need of recognition and the player so desperate for money, which is not the case...

remember a few yrs back when the table tennis team almost got into top 3 and the whole nation was hoping for our 1st gold medal in either the SEA games or olympics.. the time when jing jun hong became famous overnight? yeah.. she got 4th coz i was watching thw whole competiton that time, live.. same to susilo.. i was watching the show LIVE tonight, so he lost..

but cannot blame him also.. the whole nation anticipating and keeping our hopes high for the 1st olympics gold medal ever possible.. newspapers with his news everyday, nt to mention radio stations and tv progs with his latest news.. high media coverage sia.. of course stressed coz of the pressure the whole nation, not to mention the world, put on him.. coz no matter what, he beats the world's no. 1..

and u know y susilo won lin dan? yeah.. coz i aint watching thruout.. i missed abt half of the 2nd round to the ending.. see.. these kinda LIVE events i better stay away.. arbo sure giv them bad luck de.. feel so unlucky suddenly.. it's as if the world's spotlight dimmed..

ok.. i think i seriously need a break.. can never get enuff of slp, work is piling up, training performance stagnant, and not to forget my face seem as though it'll never get a chance to heal!! i need more rest, more water, more exercise, more sleep... and i think my wisdom tooth giving me a prob now.. it's super irritating.. cant chew properly sia.. feels like half a granny.. haizz.. and the time i spend in sch seems more than the time i stay at home.. sianzzzz...

ok. i'm so tired that i even forgotten to be grateful and happy.. until juz.. got back accounting mid-term paper.. didnt do VERY well, but still, one of the highest in the cls.. and i still loathe those pple who goes "u get so high, dun friend u already" or "dun tok to u liao lah" when pple score higher.. what is their problem seriously? someone can tell me? hear that kinda thing, sieh sian de.. like primary skl kids sia.. want to get high marks, pray harder and work harder.. dun flash the killer eyes only after we get back the paper.. or point fingers.. cannot stand it..

and i also almost forgotten to be disappointed and note the negative things.. BESE presentation today.. didnt do well.. too nervous.. dunno wat the hell i'm doing.. after so many presentations i still so nervous.. dunno for what.. i know there's nothing to be scared of.. but in a cls, no confidence at all.. damn! anyway, some probs in the cls.. between the pple and diff grps.. sian... diff pple in the grp pissed at diff pple in other grps, wat happened, wat went wrong, at themselves, at others and all.. stupid nair.. didnt tell us earlier.. his fault lah.. if he told us earlier, or at least try out, den we'll save alot of trouble, alot of bad mood and alot of untold discomfort amongst the class, plus elimimate the weird air that hung ard after that.. damn. another stupid thing.. waste time sia.. spoiler.