"wat would u do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?"

i thot of this before.. i know that when i am happy, i ought to cherish the moment.. but sadness after happiness is quite unbearable.. the only way to stop this is to be neutral.. neutral in almost everything.. only then would u be able to control your emotions... however, by doing so, u'll deprive urself of experiencing, of feeling...

it has been ages since i last laugh.. laugh not as in grin, nor smile.. but laugh, without sound effects.. that's the thing i missed most..

look at it this way.. if we go thru the 10 moments of sadness first, then the period would seem too long compared to the 1 moment of happiness.. and after that 1 moment of happiness, u'll start to feel cheated because the length of happiness that u experienced is much shorter than the sadness...

anyway, it's a lose-lose situation.. alot of thoughts.. cant blog it down.. forget it.