crap...

i got frens who ask me why i'm always so pessimistic and negative (as if one characteristic isnt enuff).. and when i ask why.. they told me coz my msn nicks and frenster profile always seem as if i'm down.. and to them, i dont look at the bright side of life.. if not never den it's seldom.. to such an extent that some of them even think that i'm always unhappy.. like *ahem~ when was i ever always unhappy?

and the funniest thing.. apart from these majority, there's the minority who claims that i always got sth positive to say and will tend to look at the bright side of life, to an extent that my "advice" is asked for.. when they need sth inspiring..

plus, i'm not hard to convince.. it's juz tt when i have alot of doubts, it's quite hard for me to agree wif wat i'm told straightaway without having second thoughts..

and, i dun call this stubborn.. i'm juz being practical?

at 1st i doubt the words of others.. and when a few frens say similar things, i'll den begin to doubt myself.. and sometimes, it's not a matter of trust.. it's a matter of who's right and who's wrong.. what if both parties are right? or both wrong? den how?

thinking of the song: ni zui zhen gui by chen xiao dong and a ger.. cant rem her name.. sth jun i think..

anyway, i dun think i can change the way pple "see" me.. so not bothering le.. juz crap abit coz like quite sometime nv blog.. den abit sian.. boling asked me y i always blog den not sian de.. haha.. ya.. now i sian liao.. nv update as often as i used to coz some things are better left unsaid..