went to sch early coz of sporting culture.. decided it's a total waste of my time actually.. they dun need me there and i juz sat ard stoning.. like an extra yeah..
by the time i was there, abt 1+, there was already abt 90 odd pple signed up for archery, plus ytd de.. and not to forget those that we "ignored" ytd, and those that we juz gave them the piece of paper coz we're all too lazy to explain and ask them to write down their names so we'll contact them??
actually, i dun get why so many pple are interested in archery.. ask me? i also dunno.. they dunno wat's in for them.. and by then, most of them would regret and quit.. and *poof, the team becomes smaller and smaller..
in 1 yr's time, the seniors would have left and archery would be handed over to the 6 of us.. tf, jk, kv, eg, ki and me.. then a new batch would be in and who knows.. maybe it'll be the fall of tp archery..
went home with an ex-clsmate today.. and all we tok abt was sch, sch and sch.. abt how terrible our timetables are.. had the feeling of travelling with a fren that u're not very familiar with and yet had to try hard to start and maintain a conversation and realised how tiring it is..
would rather go home alone actually.. at least i wouldnt feel as awkward while sitting beside her and making a fool of myself by saying stupid things like complaining abt this sem's schedule when i knwo everyone else is suffering from it and that i'm perfectly fine with it actually coz i've come to terms with this fate..
then i reached home feeling terrible coz of my throat that juz seem to get worse by itself.. or maybe coz i've not been taking care of myself that it juz refuses to be alright since 2 weeks ago?
sat in front of the tv for so many hrs.. flipping thru channels and watching watever that's on tv..all the way till 11.. and drinking bottles and bottles of water.. till i feel so bloated..
i'm sick and tired of the com.. of this virtual world that is not within my reach.. i dunno wat to do online besides the usual things like msn, check mails, blog.. i dun even listen to music anymore.. let alone surfing the net.. i dun.. i go online.. only coz it's become a habit.. a sickening habit that i can't kick.. a stupid dependent and hopeless prodct that i have no clever control over..
if not, i'll find myself staring at the monitor and doing nth, or else i'll open the blog window but not typing anything.. until someone msgs and the msg pops up indicating that i shld wake up frm my enclosed world.. and when pple ask me what i'm doing.. many a time, i really dunno wat to say.. i cant possile say that i'm stoning in front of the com right? pple would think that i'm some weirdo or freak.. but maybe i am.. but in reality, that's not the standard answer.. at least not one that pple would expect to hear.. that's y i'm not telling the truth.. maybe my nose will grow longer or sth.. and that's gd..
seriously, i need to get a life.. no need other pple to tell me.. i know it.. but the side effects outweight the pros by a great margin.. so i'm staying put.. aint moving, aint changing, aint doing wat i'm supposed to do.. cant say that i'm fine with it.. but that's the best option ut of the whole lot that i can choose from.. gotta take the best of the worse right? survival of the fittest.. only occurs in textbk.. nowadays, u dun need to be the "fittest" to be the "best".. get the looks 1st.. brains can come later.. that's wat i see and observe ard me.. so basically, u can say that the world is turning into a mega beauty pageant.. with all the new line of products coming out, more health stuff to keep pple looking younger for longer, all those slimming centres and products, makeovers, surgeries getting more common and popular, branding and so on.... long list.. and if it's not a mega beauty pageant, den it's an upcoming fashion world.. watever it is, .... * u fill in the blanks urself*
gotta rest soon, den remove some of my previosu posts, again..
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