a long and "thankful" entry.. :)

finished watching the vcd ching lend me.. :)

learnt alot from there.. btw, thanks for lending me the show.. at least there's sth i can do for a day.. hee

in life, there are alot of things that we dun express and say out loud.. we juz assume that if we ourselves know, it's more den enuff.. but more often den not, this kinda i-appreciate-wat-u've-done(in my heart) concept doesnt mean anything..

ever hear this b4?
[Silent gratitude isn’t much use to anyone]

if u appreciate or enjoyed wat others have done for you, you shld make it clear to the other party(ies) that you value watever stuff they did to make u feel happy, touched or wat-so-ever.. or at least show that u're glad and thankful that they're there by your side at that point in time.. the past and future doesnt matter that much..

dun tk pple for granted.. we all hate being taken for granted isnt it? and y muz we let others go thru wat we all hate to experience if a little action or gesture could make a whole lot of difference? u may think that there is no need for such little acts.. coz if u tell others, it's like asking for an acknoledgement and by doing so, that is a form of reward and to many pple, doing that will make u "seem" shallow as real feeling shldnt be made known.. if not u might be laughed at, jeered or watever.. more often den not, our "proud" nature stands in our way of juz saying the simple word "thanks"..

izzit really that hard to get that word out? it doesn even take alot of time.. so now, i'm trying to get out of that oh-well-i-am-not-like-those-proud-pple-who-tell-everyone-how-they-feel-coz-they-haolian shell..

coz i realised how nice it feels when someone juz mentioned that they enjoyed my company.. those small small things.. it's more den enuff.. that's y i wanna say thanks to ching, for "teaching" me that the simple act of showing that the word "thanks" mean alot and can make a whole lotsa diff.. (actually teach = i read from ur blog de..)that even a n insignificant person like me can do my bit for a fren.. and coz i read, i learn and as i learn, i got alot to say.. tt's y i so boliao sit here in the middle of the night type this very long entry juz to express wat i feel that learning to say thanks is very impt.. lol

and thanks to eve, sam, ade for enlightening me at critical times.. to ching, tina, viy, yp and YOU for listening (or seeing) me bitch and grumble abt stuff..

to my family, who always suffer my rants, bad temper, ill-mattered behaviour, crazy moments, loud moments, rude and bad personality, stubborn nature, selfish and that die-die-oso-muz-win mindset at home.. my single track mind, never-to-give-in-if-i'm-right attitude, impatient and easily agitated
temper, my ever so high irritability level, arrogance, hao-lian character, esp to my family.. my super boasting nature in front of them that makes them roll their eyes.. all those moments, gd AND bad.. i thank all of these pple.. that they can tolerate me for all my life and yet is still there.. thank them for giving me a chance to say that i'm thankful that i met them in my life..

if u nv say out, not only u'll nv have the chance again, the other party might not know that u felt this way at that particular point in time.. put away all those oh-i-am-so-embarrassed-to-do-that-kinda-thing-behaviour and JUST DO IT! coz if u nv every say, what use izzit to anyone right? it's as gd as not feeling anything aint i right? den might as well dun be grateful and thankful in the 1st place if u're the only one who'll ever know it..

okie.. end of my very long speech.. dunno how to end of this thing.. so well, juz rem.. silent gratitude isnt much use to anyone.. take the 1st step.. go on.. :)

i also began to realise that actually i dun care if there's anyone reading my blog.. better still if noone does.. coz at 1st, i wonder if my entries are boring and whether pple think tt i'm too loh soh.. and slowly, indirectly, i made this blog into an entertainment site.. true.. blogging itself isnt tt intersting.. but blog surfing is.. so i tried to include more "interesting" stuff so tt pple may enjoy reading..

now i heck.. it doesnt matter if others are not interested to hear wat i've got to say or think that i say too much.. maybe i do.. much more den others.. but it's a kinda outlet for expression isnt it? call me a blog chatterbox.. it doesnt matter.. as long as i'm happy and contented blogging now, who cares abt wat others think in the past, present or future? hee.. hope u all enjoyed all those crap tt i've said so far..

oh.. as this is a "thankful" entry, muz end off with: THE END
THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND ATTENTION.. =D