THE SUNDAY crapTIMES

wahaha.. found one of my last sem's clsmate's blog.. hmm.. interesting huh.. the 1st post i read was abt why his blog posts are so short and why he's such a terrible blogger..

the answer he gave was that he's simple.. he doesnt have depression sessions and that he's always positive.. hmm.. interesting huh.. was reading thru and i wondered if i'm the exact opposite?

coz for one, i've lots and lots of things to blog.. my entries are damn long, and i always managed to find crap to say, or negative thots to include.. so does that mean that i'm a fantastic blogger? lolx.. juz so bcoz i'm not simple? lolx.. we're all not simple.. hey there.. we humans are complex creatures.. when are we ever simple? lolx..

and i dun think i can EVER be ALWAYS positive.. we have to be somewhat in balance.. although we tend to tilt to one side more, either positive or negative.. budden, i cant even imagine someone being always happy, always positve, always feeling gd.. it's juz so.. not right..

maybe coz he hasnt been thru alot? i dunno.. i'm juz assuming.. u see.. if one of ur loved ones passed away, or is in grave danger or sickness, it's natural that u'll feel sad.. dun tell me that u'll look at the positive side of like coz some powerful being is delivering those u love from misery and pain. it's a whole lot of crap..

we're given feelings so that we can experience them, express ourselves, and not that we shld shun from showing those more "negative" ones juz bcoz they're "not gd". i feel that it's the same as "we are never given dreams without the power to make them come true".. we're never given feelings without the chance to experience them in our lifetime.. it's juz a matter of time.. never had the sad feeling? wait till someone u treasure passed away..

life's fair.. i think so.. it's juz god playing with time.. for example, for someone who's been thru alot, lost their family when they were young coz of some tragedy, they'll learn to be independent and all that they've been thru hardened them and they are who they are today.. for those who're fortumate enuff to have pple loving them and all, they'll leanr to be dependent and when those ard them moved on or passed away, they're left feeling lost and all, and they have to start being independent and having more responsibilities than before.. so u see.. if it's not a matter of time, then what is it? i agree, although luck does plays a part, we cannot always count on the heng-suay thingy.. coz all of us get to experience the suayness mah.. even so, most pple cant get out of the pit when the suay hit them.. and those who're heng juz seem to get heng-er.. anyway, it's a whole lot of crap here.. not practising paragraphing again.. coz i sian mah. paragraphing oso lidat.. the words also come out mah.. no diff to me.. that's all from one small thot of mine.. yeah.. almost forgotten why i blog this entry.. toking abt the relationship between short posts and terrible blogger. lolx.. refer to my above crap and u'll know.. bye.