1 last entry b4 i end off this day.

bo liao me browsing thru my journals again. translating stories from chinese to english.. had a solemn time reminiscing.

- bought a blouse. love it very much. so much so that i am reluctant to wear it for i might dirty the new clean top. months down the road, i took out the same blouse to realise that it is already out of fashion.
- bought a cake back then. a cake that looks so yummy that i curb my temptation by putting it in the fridge so that i can slowly savour it bit by bit instead of stuffing it down at one go. the cake was forgotten for i did not open the fridge frequently. days past. when i finally felt like eating it, the cake was already spoilt.
- these two examples are similar to that of a relationship. u must wear the blouse at the time when u like it. u must enjoy the cake at the point where u still have the craving. only then u truly possess it. once u missed the enjoyment period, what's left behind is only regret.

u know i thought about this quiet a number of times.. if there is a fire and i can only grab limited things before i run for safety. the 1st thing i reach out for would not be the money but my journals, my notebooks, my files full of memories. money i can always earn again. uncaptured memories are lost forever....

i once told a clsmate. i think there are 2 types of pple. and the real them will surface during an argument. one would dig up every single situation in the past and try to make it such that with such a long and substantial "data and history", the other person MUST give in. the other person, operates with blind spots, blcking out the "past" and focus on the present situation. this type of person can examine every single action, body language in detail so much so that his or her side of the argument is as "substantial" as the former. the 1st type of person are those who hold fast to their past memories. sad to say, they are the ones who will bear grudges.. the latter thinks that we all have to move on. things that are unworthy to be remembered muz be forgotten so that their lives can be smooth-er sailing.. this type of pple takes things more lightly, even "unworthy" friendships.. if the 2 parties are friends, then the 1st one would end off the argument with sth like "our friendship is over!" the 2nd one will say sth like "gd. now it's my fault. everything is my fault. i know i cant be as good. but i've tried!" then they move on.. and this memory is stashed away at a dark untouched corner deep in their hearts.

this is a similar story as the cashier in a busy store. the one who screams at the customer and the one who pretends everything is fine until one day he or she explodes, take out a gun and shoot the customer.

so after these 3 short stories, what do u think? guess many of u didnt even finish reading this.. lolx.. watever..