i dunno wat got into me. a classmate was telling me abt wat she heard frm XW.. in a matter of fact, it matters to me but my reaction doesnt tally with how i feel.. i appear so indifferent, as if couldnt care how others see me. stupid things like comments and impressions.. they affect me.. or maybe it's nt the issue. it's how she puts the point across to me.

i hate it when others interests are in conflict with mine. seems selfish huh.. another of those all-i-care-abt-is-me talks.. but how to show that i am upset with watever others are doing when it's a ratio of 3:1? i hate being the minority..

i find myself getting all worked up and upset or affected over the smallest things in life. i overlook the whole pictures.. i am too engrossed with the details that i miss out enjoying the whole painting.. certain things that meant alot to me now might be crap 3 years down the road but at least i did wat i want to do back then. i remembered once in primary 2 i got scolded by my chinese teacher in front of the whole class that i got so upset for so many days, thinking that my teacher hates me for being a bad student.. now that i think back, i find myself so innocent, so oblivious to the more important things in life.. life's like that.. pple get uptight for the wrong things many a time, making wrong decisions that they'll regret for life, maybe.

will end off with this:
[i saw a painting of 2 friends holding hands.. wonder how long it'll stay intact? it's old but never fading. wish we were that painting.. getting older yet never changing..]