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proj meeting with half the grp. coz only 3 present.

PPCC training. got tired after i cant seem to force my fingers to relax. felt like a zombie with stiff arms.. anyway, as usual, after giving up, i sat down and enjoy bball skills..

saw this very young boy. at most 140. from playing in a BIG grp to one-on-one to alone.

all the while he kept doing the same things over and over again. aiming, shooting, retrieving, defending and all.. never once he sat down to rest. den i think. maybe that's what they call discipline. when the pple ard u gave up and left, u hold fast to ur dreams.

i see the ball bouncing high and losing energy. and i witness the boy fueling the ball with more energy continuously. juz by looking, i can see how tiring it is for the short boy to even throw the ball from a distance. did he give up? no he didnt.

till a point in time, he did the opposite from scoring. and maths came to my mind. it's somewhat like that. u have the question, u have the answer. all u need is to find the means to get to the end...

packed up when PPCC got crowded and "embarked" on the looooooooong journey home.

went to the playground. surprisingly, the coast is clear and no screaming kids about. hence i did something that i never do for quite sometime. the swings... this time round, it's with a diff kinda mood with a diff motive.

the last few times i did it late into the night when everything was still. now, at dusk, things are portrayed in a diff light. i hear birds chirping, leaves rustling and kids laughing.. the happy things in life. my skills deteoriated soooo much thru the years.. due to my weight, i cant swing as high. the momentum wasnt as smooth as i remembered it to be. disappointment.. how can i nt be? but i'm glad i still relive my childhood moments thru the swings.. nothing else is as special as that. swing to my hearts content.

what abt you? what can make u a child again?

am thinking. if i come up with a list of "things i dunno/never notice abt myself" and ask my friends to fill up, is that possible? in life, shldnt we strive to understand ourselves more? coz when we have less doubts abt ourselves, we'll be more confident. and when we're more confident, we're more likely to succeed.