learnt a great lesson from the little things in life.

ever heard this saying that sometimes, the smallest thing matters most? Try sleeping with a mosquito in the room and u'll know how it feels..

when i first saw that, i totally agree. and i experienced it today.

the thing that irritates me the most during training is not the sun, not the strained muscles and not the sweat. it's the field, the different flies all over the field. and it's irritating when i try so hard to anchor, to pull more den there's this little thing flapping around, somehow it totally destroys every single ounce of patience and endurance i intend to have.

and i used to think that my alignment muz be correct coz the feeling is there and that the arrow is roughly at where i want it to go. today i realised i've been living in a lie i fabricated for more den a yr. everything is totally wrong. all those positive self talks are useless. and now i dunno if i shld believe in myself anymore. blehz.

all the things that i used to think that is correct or ideal are wrong. so wrong. there is no such thing as correct. damn. anchoring at the center is the ideal place for most pple. not all. minorities exist and maybe i'm one of them. i never or seldom see others having as MUCH problems as me, or even complaining half as often as i do. and y do i seem to have double the amt of endless supply of problems compared to others? i think coz they trade in hardwork and sheer exhaustion for it..

and it's terribly UNmotivating to see urself still at such a super duper noobz stage stuck for so long. watever~ it all boils down to motivation, attitude and the willigness to work hard to achieve better results.

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