was reading blogs just now and somehow i managed to visualise images of me opening doors along a dark corridor, walking in, closing the door behind me and stood staring at the enclosed area for ages, feeling and understanding more of life alone, undisturbed. and when i'm done, i walk out, continue reaching out for the next door. when i'm done, maybe i'll find another corridor, maybe i'll juz turn around and reopen those doors to find the treasures within.

maybe that's the same logic as blog hopping.. sometimes u open a door and even though the room is empty, u can feel sorrow. sometimes u are able to peep into deeps thoughts that u cant call urs.. sometimes u feel strong emotions, sometimes u welcome watever that's inside with open arms.. sometimes u place ur hand at the handle and pause for a second before moving to the next.

many times, i dun even know what i'm blogging. i find myself juz typing on and on without knowing what i'm trying to say. and if u notice, most of my posts dun hav a title.

i got this from a fanfic.. one of the rare times i read fanfic..
"when u learn the world is all but a hollow place, ur depression increases as u realise everything disappears.. words, pple and feelings.. "

to some pple, this is crap but somehow i can relate and dun think that it's funny. took it down in my fone..

maybe it's the three things that caught my eye. coz of this NEL quote on 1st Nov
"three things in life once gone never comes back - time, words and opportunities."

if u put these 2 quotes togther, u'll realised that "words" is the only common factor.

coz unspoken words will lead to regrets, which in turn explains "feelings." and more often than not, those words are for certain "people." as the feelings accumulate and wont go away, u'll focus ur enerfy on these thigns and thus lose many "opportunities." lastly, when all these are happening, "time" passes u by.

for this holiday, there are a few things that i subconsciously say, or use rather. i like to express certain emotions with the words "maybe, juz maybe." and "dun ask me why, i juz do."

coz they carry with them a tinge of that "sth" that is quite impossible for me to put down in words.. ya.. that's all for "Crap of the day." stay tuned for tml's dosage. bye.