dying to get out.

being at home reminds me that i am sick and that i shld
1) drink more of that supposedly tasteless H2O
2) rest more

and that makes me feel so useless.. and the more i keep thinking i want to get well, somehow, my body cant work as hard to recover.. and i'm pissed coz even after taking the medicine and all, i dun see any improvement in my condition. and it certainly doesnt help not able to eat anything nice. no fried food, no tea, no chocolates, no sweets.. i cant only alternate water and water with chuan bei pi pa gao. sounds pathetic huh..

and i try not to cough coz my throat hurts so that means that even if i want, even if i'm bored, i cant sing! and i feel stupid coz the sickness is taking control over my body..

many ILLS are born of fatigue and loneliness. as much if not more den fears.