fever marathon.. the longest for as long as i remember

i've been lying in bed since sunday so much so that my body refused to slp last night.

the fever is driving me mad coz the temperature fluctuates.. everyday, it'll hit 39, 40 without fail.. and i hate the medicine.. i feel worse after taking it.. it gives me headache when it's supposed to cure it.. damn..

i've been going to sch looking so terrible that my frens couldnt recognise me from near.. and i'm so tired i juz feel like slping the whole day..

i dun even hav the energy to blog for the past few days, even at my cousin's house.. went to the polyclinic ytd.. did a full blood count, the doc told me if 3 days ltr my fever still doesnt go away, den i'll hav to go and do that blood test again.. i wasted more den 2 hrs there, feeling worse before going to my grandpa's house. luckily my cousin was there wif me.. arbo ltr i faint i also dunno who can help me sia..

i dunno wat the medicine's side effects are, but it sure is torturing..

these few days, i feel as if i am better off dead.. now i know why they say frens and family are impt especially when u're sick. coz when u're suffering alone on that big bed, feeling as terrible as can be, at least there is someone who comes to ur bedside, showing u wif lots of love, care and concern.. i think that is what keeps pple going.. that glimpse of hope.

went to see 2 diff docs.. the 2nd one told me i got a viral fever, watever that is, it sure doesnt sounds good.. coz virus is worse den bacteria mah.. i dunno why i got hit for sooooooooo many days.. was thinking the reason why i feel 10 times worser than my last time fever was becoz when u nv fall really sick for quite a long period of time, the effects, the pain, everything got maximised to give u hell.

i was sooo scared that the 40 degrees fever will burn my brain and i'll become stupid.. or i'll lose part of my memory or what.. luckily i didnt.. thank god.. or maybe it's too early to say..