tsunami

i dunno if u all feel as i do.

i've been reading the papers and sort of keeping track of the death toll. on sunday when i first heard the news from my mom, i thought this is a SMALL case. turn out to be otherwise. with the number of corpses totalling up to 55000 and more, and still rising, i feel so useless. there's nothing much i can do to help. out there, people are dying, bodies decomposing on the streets, families separated, homes destroyed and hopes dashed. and here, in S'pore, pple are complaining that the weather is cold when we have warm food, snug clothing and adequate shelter. i AM a selfish person. we all are. in the confort of my home yesterday night, i was grumbling abt the weather, how i cant study when it's freezing cold, why my house doesn hav any snacks, and worrying over 2 stupid class tests that i haven prepared for. and somewhere not too far away, others are fighting to live. trying desperately to locate their families, bewildered coz the waves brought together with it grief and sadness, darkness and pain.

the media is calling out to the pple of s'pore for help. and it's only right that we should respond. cant the S'pore pools stop collecting bets just for a week, and donate the prize money? cant some companies give their workers a day off to help transport and help pack things that need to be send over and every little manpower is needed? our nation talks about doing all that we can to help. yet our national trade union congress (NTUC) is so stingy so as to come up with this (pay$10 and they'll send a bag of necessities worth $13+++) what the hell. if they're sincere, they shld juz donate those stuff. and not try to increase their inventory turnover. damn.

and war.. the thought of it makes me sick. those freaking countries buying amunition and weapons and what not juz so that they can torture each other, spending millions and billions so they can put up a wonderful show for the rest of the world. and the hell they broguth to their own pple. if all the contries can chip in and donate the money they set aside for national defense to aid pple frm sri lanka, frm indonesia, from maldives and so on, wont the world then be more appreciative of what humans, as a whole, do to help one another? wont there then be peace because war will cease to exist?

organisations are collecting donations and i see pple giving freely. this IS what i call the spirit of giving. reaching out to help. playing our part. when jas frm my cls told me abt how strongly karene feels abt this thing, i can understand. it's not juz another hooha that the media created. this is the REAL thing. fellow humans who deserve as much right as us to live needs help. and we, being fortunate enuff to be born in an ideal environment that pple frm other countries desire, shldnt we do more?

was listening to the radio station all the way to school today about the news. the DJs was saying "when u want to donate, think twice before pulling out that mere $2 for the sake of donating". they talked abt how pple are questioning if those organisations who claimed that they are helping those in need are really helping or they're juz finding a way to earn money. DONT THOSE IDIOTS HAVE A HEART? in times like this, why would those buggers EVEN THINK of such things? DUN QUESTION OTHERS" SINCERITY if they dun hav the same giving heart.

i feel so disappointed to see pple not being affected by this natural disaster. how could they not?
everywhere, pple are laughing, enjoying the last few days of this year, thinking of how to end it perfectly, treating this issue as if it's none of our country's concern.

the number of pple killed, injured and lost. is this too high a price to pay for a wake up call?

i see this, as a slap God gave, right in our faces. As a gift He bestowed upon us to remind us for the many things we ought to be grateful, and that we shld treat mother nature better. we've been abusing her for far too long. longer than his patience level, higher than his limit. we cut away her precious children forests, burnt her beloved grandchildren while polluting the earth.

the tsunami will be remembered for years to come. i hope by the time our nation ages gracefully, we can stand up and say that we are proud to be there to help when disaster strikes. that together, we help to rebuild these countries, building bonds lasting far stronger than diplomatic ties while strengthening compassion.

sometimes, counting blessings is not enough. we have to take the necessary actions.

ending off this entry with a prayer. maybe at this point in time God cant be bothered abt our pleas. but when He finally sees the wonders of human nature, i'm sure he'll step in to help. he'll relent, and give us another chance. i hope i live to see the day. please God, curb ur rage.