the quiet hall and rows of pple doing the qns seriously brought me closer to heaven yet a little close to hell as well.. everyone was in focus mode, only seeing what lies in front of them.. and suddenly, an image of us all in workstations flashed across my mind. although it's one big open space, we're all in our own area, concentrating hard, thinking deeply...
the sun brought warmth and light. the paper was bright. it was hard to see.. and u can feel ur own temperature rising.. and the fan.. it either irritate u by messing up ur hair, or circulate the already warm air round and round... but i was contented.. while taking a break frm my paper, i looked up, thru the clear and matt panes above the hall.. and saw that glow.. and heaven seems so much closer than usual.. maybe i'm the only one not focusing.. the only one taking time to slack during the period whereby others were rushing against time, where time seemed to be on slow motion mode, where we're all in worlds of our own.
i crap thru the paper.. started studying last night at abt 10+.. hope i do well for this paper, although it's only 30%..
was telling my mom that the best i could get for AR and OB is a B, she said "so lousy ar".. and i was like... duh~ hello~! B=70 marks and above.. A=80 and above.. how to get such high grades especially if the subject coursework grade consists of diff components? maybe i'm juz lousy. watever~
got abit irritated.. pple juz got used to it that gd grades come naturally? if i get high grades, they say "ok lah. nt bad lor. gd." juz like i think huihui got the brains so she's gd at every subject.. and when she really score well, i'll think it's normal, nothing much.. think she's used to it.. used to us ignorant pple thinking that she's 1 level higher than the rest of us so it's tian jing di yi that she got higher grades..
feel so left out. alot of thoughts. so little space to write.
going to bed first, dream of dreams and den wake up to face a WHOLE new day again.
M.K... thinking.. dun think shld. haizz.. sian.. wat can a person do before the exams except studying?
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