Sunday, October 24

a saturday at home

i guess i pretty much deleted abt 30 posts from my drafts and recent posts.. mission accomplished..

saw this in the confession webbie and felt sad for the person.. this is the only post (so far) that is not funny compared to those that i read.

I lied and said I wasn't in love, but I was.
I lied and said I didn't care, but I did.
I lied and said it wouldn't hurt me, but it did.
I lied and said I was happy for her, but I'm not.
I lied and said I wasn't hurt, but I am.

spent abt 2 hrs juz re-reading wat went thru my mind for the past few months.. felt great making those entries that i hav strong emotions wif disappear from my sight.. coz somehow, time numbs those feelings.. and i dun exactly mind not knowing the details..

great day i can say. i skipped training. for fear that i'll spoil the mood of the pple there.. it's a lovely weather i agree.. but wif my character, things are hard to say.. dun wanna spoil their mood is an excuse.. impt factor is that i dun wanna spoil my mood.. woke up after having some disturbing dreams and i somehow know that i wont be wanting to go down. felt kinda weird. wat makes it worse is that there is nothing much to eat at home besides junk food so i had chips for breakfast followed by some cracker for desserts.. basically, i almost finished up the junk food supply at home, making me feel a bit guilty. juz a little bit.

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