still the same?

i'm not.

i haven been resting well.. mind couldnt seem to get to rest. no thoughts, but the mind is way too empty to even sleep. i feel uneasy but i dunno wat's wrong.

added a few lines every now and then to my journal. it's fast huh.. i've been blogging for one whole sem.. started after last sem's exams.. and here they are again.. time flies ya.. about... 5 months to half a yr.. time flies huh.. before i realise, half my poly life gone.. and what hav i achieved? nothing.. nothing much..

but things are getting better... i even took out my chinese dictionary and checked for some words... that is coz i simply coldnt stand looking at my notes.. i spent the whole day juz looking at the same few pages... coz i woke up late, watched cartoon with my sis coz it's children's day.. study abit, den back to tv all the way till 10.. wat did i do during these 5 days? i really dunno wat i was doing all along.. it seems like 5 hours to me instead of days..

it's children's day huh... when did i last celebrated children's day? took out this jotterbook of mine and showed it to my sis.. my primary 1 book.. or pri 2? my sis asked me how many yrs ago that was.. and i think back.. 11 yrs? 12?

i lost count. lost count of the yrs that passed me by when i was growing up. lost count of the times that slipped away unnoticed while i wasnt looking, when my focus was on other things. and when i look back, all i noticed was large empty voids in my memory. and there's nth i can do abt that. actually i dun wanna do anything about that...