was chatting with my mom on the way to my grandparents' house and i realised sth.. if we keep ourselves busy, we will have less time to think and ponder abt stuff.. u can call it distractions.. i dunno. coz i sort of noticed that i blog less and made lesser comments after i started work. and all u can think abt is nothing but what happened during the day, so u hav less time for all those brain-stimulating stuff..

told my mom that when u're younger, u think abt things, gd and bad, big and small. when u grow older, esp if u're working, all u think abt is work, how to spend money, how little time u have, how long the working hrs are, how gd/bad the customers are and so on. soon, u're thoughts will be trapped within ur life area, those that are impt to u in ur life- ur family, ur work. u sort of got out of that infinite thinking space. unlike kids.. they think abt anything and everything.. maybe that's y the magic is gone.. forever.

i took a minute or two to think.. and true enuff, last yr it's all abt sakae. now it's the same. i think of the time i stand, think of my heels, think of the guests, think of the ballrooms, think abt the guestrooms, think abt the card verification, think abt the cabs, think abt the working hrs, think abt break, think abt the food, think abt the locker room and so on.. all abt work.. and i didnt hav time to stop and wonder.. y is the sky blue? why is there dust on earth? where has the lights gone to? how did the wind come by? all sorts of things.. i juz sort of stone and wonder when my legs will give way. think abt how my poor feet is suffering, think if i culd at least pray for less guests arrivals and more no shows.. that's all i think abt.. and i feel pathetic..

shall stop here.. brain needs to work but body needs to rest. nitez.