okie.. so this is it? is it all? all my life i dunno how i shld feel on my bdae..shld i feel special? how shld i react on this particular day? i really have no idea.. i feel indifferent. it's as if i'm wasting yet another day of my life slacking.. and that's sth really normal. i waited for awhile more and decided that there's nothing to look forward to.. and my thoughts are so normal that i feel weird.. as if something is telling and urging me to feel, to experience, to be different. i fell asleep.

woke up ard 12 coz of the long msg tone.. had to force myself to reply.. i think i missed out some.. watever.. drag myself outta bed to open the prezzie meihui gave.. it's like routine stuff.. i've been receiving prezzie from her since primary 1? but i like that feeling.. the feeling knowing that even if the whole world forgets ur bdae, there's someone out there who will not.. and the feeling brings contentment..

disappointments.. don't we all have it in our lives? so there's nothing much i hope for. really.

i wont let anything ruin my mood. my peaceful mood for the day..

anyway, thanks to all that wish me well, hapi bdae or whatsoever.. appreciate all ur wishes.. make me feel as if i'm not so insignificant.. =]

was sitting alone in my very cold room with the bedside lamp on.. unwrapping the prezzie meihui gave.. thinking abt wat we all say in the evening when she brought the things over.. juz standing there and talking... for abt an hr most probably.. den when unwrapping the paper, i couldnt help but see flashbacks of our primary sch times.. and i smile.. coz i really dunno how we managed to still remain as frens after so many years.. angie and CE is my longest frens yes.. but meihui is the only one that i've been keeping in contact all these years.. cant help feeling weird coz i simply couldnt understand how someone can stand me for sooo long.. but i'm still glad despite all those unanswered qns..

the shells made such an amzazingly clear sound that vibrate round the room, and it's pleasure for my ears.. i juz sat there and got lost in space. haha..

i've got wat i wanted for.. my parents made it came true. i wanted to get away from s'pore. away to a place where i can forget and not think abt things.. and i did.. for the past 3 days.. it was simply slacking, enjoying and slacking still.. the bed there very comfy.. everything there was great. except the entertainment.. i had many a gd laughs from the conversations... and the sea is fantastic..

sang a bdae song to myself. contented.. =]

i dunno if this is the natural reaction of a bdae ger.. seems weird to me. maybe many pple fell this way but i dunno.. coz my frens always seem to have a great bdae.. okie.. after this post i'm gonna turn optimistic ya.. juz for one day..

coz it's ONCE IN A LIFETIME... and everything is once in a lifetime duh!!

okie..back to bed.. back to my dreams... they're beckoning..