Friday, May 14

again~ sian den dun read.. nt impt anyway..

hmm.. got gd and bad news.. usually, pple ask for the bad news 1st.. well, i'm going to giv the gd news 1st..

gd news: my maternal grandpa.. struvk lottery.. $2000..
bad news: well, that same uncle of mine, sort of irritates me again.. he drove all the way to holland and fetch him to his house near LOT 1.. usually he will grumble and say that it's out of the way and that others can go and fetch him coz they oso own cars.. well, tok abt how filial this person is.. once there's incentive, den he'll do it.. damn.. last time i grumble abt him, this time gotta do it again..

damn.. always lidat le.. stick out his hand and tk money.. he thinks money falls from the sky.. as if lah.. it's nt like i dunno why he go all "out of the way" to fetch my grandpa to his house.. nt as if i'm some stupid 10-yr-old kid.. it's clear tt he wants a share of the money.. and today is not even sat or sun.. it's a fri for goodness sake.. he's not so kind to "invite" my grandpa to his house to see see look look k..

well, nt that i wanna flare up over this small thing.. juz abit da bao bu ping for my grandpa.. and coz i really dunno y some pple are lidat..

went to visit my paternal grandpa today.. well, 1st thing i asked is whether he had his dinner.. he said ya.. den asked if he's feeeling better.. he said ya again.. hmm.. heard from my mom that alot of pple called juz to ask if he has had his meals.. concern bah.. but same qns over and over again.. think he'll also be sian of it.. same qn, so same reply..

learning to slow down.. it's when everything stops moving that fast that i get a chance to look at things clearer.. to make better decisions, to keep my temper at check and to calm myself down and allow myself to think and react sensibly.. if nt it'll definitely be a nightmare.. slowly, bit by bit, think i can do it.. muz hav confidence.. if dun hav, den i'll have my intake of cocoa and well, it's a fabulous short term solution..

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