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hey.. any1 knows wat happened to my blog picture? coz suddenly not there.. any idea wat i can do to restore it? or shld i juz wait till it appears again?

mothers' day.. damn bored.. was feeling quite pissed juz now.. ate with my relatives and my grandparents.. den my uncle came late.. gave that pissed off face when all of us were having fun.. spoil my night.. at 1st happily serving things to the rest of the table.. help my grandparents to tk food and all that stuff.. den when he came, i was called to "serve" him.. damn sian.. den nv appreciate what i did.. like hello~!! everyone was affected by his black face appearance.. my grandma even had to "look after" him.. ask him wat he wants to eat.. drink.. wat his kids want.. tk food for him.. and he juz sat there and grumble.. like wat his maid already cook liao.. den inform him so late.. den nv wait for him.. blah blah..

grumble and grumble when we were eating.. somemore he sat at MY table.. damn sian.. and he smokes.. wanted to juz walk away but that would seem quite rude.. so i stayed on.. but continued drinking my big mug of carlsberg, which my another uncle refilled for me from time to time.. it somehow diverts my attention.. when i finished, he's still toking and grumbling.. like.. duh~ it's mothers' day.. he came late, no apologies, with a face black as hell, nv wish my grandma, nv do anything and blames us for not arranging this dinner thingy earlier.. oh.. nad he THOUGHT mothers' day is LAST week.. nvm.. after dinner, we went to my aunt's house..

as usual, i stayed on to help my grandpa coz he cant see clearly and his legs are weak.. while walking up the stairs to my aunt's place, my grandpa took out his wallet and tried so hard to see the amount of money he has in his wallet so that he could give some to my uncle.. imagine his at his old age, difficulty walking and seeing, still has to fork out money for his son.. damn.. i saw.. that he only has 2 blue notes and a few red notes in his wallet.. and he gave the 2 blue notes to my uncle.. that means my grandpa got lesser to spend.. and that idiot never even utter a word of thanks.. or anything..

at that point in time, thots ran thru my mind.. feelings and emotions all NEGATIVE.. he's like 37? can live in condo, got a car, maid, he smokes and buys anything that his sons want.. and he's complaining that he got no money.. oh.. and ya.. he doesnt have a stable job.. and needs pple to offer financial help from time to time.. his wife is providing for the family coz she has a degree and a job with higher pay.. what kind of life is he living? and what exactly is on his mind i really dunno.. imagine still tking money frm ur parents at such a age.. he shld be the one giving.. nt the other way round.. he's actually worse off den all of us put together..

drinking carlsberg doesnt seem to have any effect on me.. juz that after that, i feel like drinking more.. maybe juz so that i can sort of shut him off my thoughts.. damn.. dun ask me if i am pissed now.. i WAS...