believe or not to?

hmm.. dun think u all know this.. it's abit too long.. juz ignore it.. coz i'm juz blogging to grumble.. juz skip directly to the nxt entry..

hmm.. been toking to a fren's fren last night online.. den well.. dunno whether to believe him or my fren.. coz u see ar.. if i dun believe my fren, den who do i believe? but sometimes, we need to look at things from another person's view/perspective..

we might be so blinded by what we believe to be the truth that we actually overlooked the facts... but i couldnt help wondering the motive of the person who told me that.. coz u see.. i dunno that person well, and yet i'm being led into the secret of the "truth".. budden if the matter is serious, most pple would have know and somehow, the problem will surfaced and more pple will tk notice, den the few of them will know and will tell me in turn.. coz no matter how bad it is, we're supposed to go thru it together.. but the problem is, wat if the person really is in the fault but she herself doesnt think that wat she is doing all along is alright? shld she be forgiven, coz bu zhi ze wu zui?

on the other hand, the person told me coz there's a tiny chance that i may be able to change her.. her so-called "wrongdoings".. but aint we supposed to accept each other, flaws and all, if we're frens? and not try to change each other for the sake of "making" her into the person that we think is "good". again, who determines what's gd and what's not?

u see.. if i can accept her flaws and all and am fine with it coz it somehow makes her the person she is now and maybe this is what makes her stands out from the crowd.. who cares what other pple say if u are comfortable being ard her? heck the rest.. if they dun like, they can tok to her and confront her.. it aint my problem coz it never was and never is a problem.. it doesnt prevents us from being frens right.. and since it doesnt deter the strong bond we're building, den why are u so affected? i really dunno.. and when i asked, u said that it's been a few yrs since u know abt it.. and well, since u can live with it for a few yrs, den i think there's not much problem right? and y muz i be the one to "change" her? coz i know her better? y not u try.. coz u all hang ard more den me and her.. and i really dunno wat's wrong in the 1st place.. and by telling me all those stuff, it aint helping.. coz it doesn change thee impression of her and it juz isnt worth giving up the frenship coz of somethings that dont apply to the rest of us..

u told me that she might not believe wat u've told me and might even deny so it's best that i'm the one to tok to her.. den in that case, dun u think it's not worth the effort? coz u see.. if she denies, there's nth u can do and it'll definitely worsen the relationship..and if she admits and agrees to change, u think the frenship will last long too? haa.. well, tell u what, maybe i'm trying to defend her.. but well, think again and see.. it's nt worth it.. u can know it for sooo long and yet be ard her as though there's nth wrong, den i dun see y u cant continue doing it.. it's nt as if u'll be ard her forever.. diff schs le.. so.. no diff mah..

and well, if ur impressions of pple can change, coz i'm 1 gd example, as u've told me, den i dun see any problem in changing ur impressions abt her.. give pple chances.. coz sometimes, many things happen for a reason.. u dun really know me yet u gave me a 2nd chance to change the bad impression i created last time.. and seriously, i think she's a nicer person den me and if i managed to change ur 1st terrible impression of me, den she'll be able to do it too...