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gone with the wind.

we all want wat's best for ourselves. but someone has to suffer, giv in or accommodate somehow. when others make it clear that they hav no thot of compromising, all that's left for me to do is wat's best for the majority. and i find it unfair. juz because one is used to it doesnt mean that pple will giv in always. compromisation is gd enuff but u want pple to accommodate. one day it'll turn to competing and that's when things are really over.

ask if i find it a pity. of course i do. wat's worse den realising wat's wrong after everything happened?

it's tiring work. and tough on my poor heart, mind and soul. i feel as if i let myself down. as if all that wasnt meant to be if it's another side of me. but does that mean that i have to wait for my mood to turn bad in order to show the other side of me? i almost did. but i didnt.

walking across the skyway path, i tried to create excuses to facilitate understanding, minimise conflicts and miscommunication. but why am i helping others find excuses? coz i find it a need to? coz i am a busybody? coz i cant mind my own business? coz i hope others would understand y certain pple do what they did and why their actions muz be understood and forgiven?

can i juz forget it and ignore wat i hear? no, i cant. it would be unfair to others. to those who got blamed or accused, or hated for things that they supposingly and rightfully shld do. but all these are my views. shld i giv feedback? shld i not?

was contemplating whether i shld feel guilty after grumbling to shini about wat happened. decided not to. y shld i? if i dun feel gd, y cant i show feelings?

lost control juz now. slp after tt. i dunno wat happened. juz tt my bro got a shock i think.. and i'm nt apologising..

it's time i go back to slp. back to my cosy bed, my world.