[You aren't looking for anyone who reminds you of anyone else]

i have to keep reminding myself coz subconsciously i'll do that.. when i sit down and reflect, i'll realised that it isnt doing me any good.. shadows of yesterday, traces of memories. seems like heaven is making fun of me ya.. i know it yet i still do it. there are many others who dun even need to think about it yet they know that they cant and they wont.

afraid? of? the future? uncertainties? and y am i seeking familiarity? timid? idiotic? reluctant? of? the past? i cant seem to move.

suddenly remember maurice.. that guy ar.. actually he crap alot but some things he said makes sense.. i know. and he managed to somehow make me realised that i'm stupid. "wake me up" from the hypnotism stage i was in and let me look reality in the face.

i thank him ya. thank him for the many things he shared. i've grown.

and how can i forget [turn the page]? turn the page, u were there.. (*repeat countless times...)

how time flies.. i feel like i'm looking at time on wings. speeding past before i can react.